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See post March 18th 2008 for details on why this is here
http://silverhoofs.bravejournal.com/entry/31995
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Standing on a moonlit path, a wolf howls and I shudder
Where walks the fear of humanity is all my minds does utter
I reach for magick all about, for wisdom born of aches
And I know that one day I will reach the promised Crystal Lakes
The magick swells within my soul, and I am frightened too
For I am only now learning what this mind can really do
So walk this twisted path with me where feelings run so free
As I discover the powers behind the hidden Mysteries .
Just dropping in to see how things are going and to wish you a great day and a great weekend. I'll be back again soon.
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loved walkin through your site! I too am blessed.
I'm making the rounds, visiting my friends, and you're on my list.
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It's Tuesday, Feb. 26/08, and I'm dropping by to see what's new and wish you a great day. I hope you're feeling okay, and that you haven't come down with that awful flu that's been going around... Take care, my friend; hope to hear from you soon.
It's Tuesday, Feb. 19/08, 7:21am. I'm just popping in to see what's new and to wish you a great day.
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So we all seem to have food on our minds right now, you cant turn the TV or Radio on without hearing of possible shortages, limited allowances of what you can buy, riots and more. I asked the ALBS about this what can we do to help in the growth of more food from gardens we grow.
Here's what I got from Risnuch He told me that to aid in the growth of gardening to use Crystal (for steady full growth with some protection from disease)and Aventurine (for acceleration of plants growth).

Crystal = crystal points towards center crystal,
A = Aventurine
In a 10 foot by 10 foot garden use the following lay out, (see above fig 1.) Keep the middle Crystal pointing up and the other Crystals pointed towards the center Crystal. Crystal size doesn’t matter, just so the center crystal is the largest.
The Aventurine can be tumbled or raw, it doesn’t matter. The size of the Aventurine does matter:
For Small = chips to dime size They need placed every 2 feet apart between Crystals
For Med to large Size = over dime to larger They need placed every 4 feet apart between crystals
If your plot is larger then 10 by 10 you will need to add a crystal for every additional 10 feet. For example if its over 10 feet, say 11 feet you will need an extra crystal cause its over the 10 feet.
If you are planting on a balcony or such, place the Crystals/Aventurine on the outer edges of the area, so you make a grid. If you are planting in pots 1 small crystal plus 1 small Aventurine in each pot.
So hopefully that should help. I can vouch for using crystals in plants. We had an apple tree that we planted for a dear friend that crossed, we placed a crystal under it in the root ball to help it along. One year this tree was so abundant it had over 200 apples and it was only about 6 feet tall at the time. Each year it had produced many many apples. It is also the tree that gave us the great pictures of the Fae.
http://www.silverhoofs.com/faegarde.htm
We have moved it to the new house (crystal and all) and we will see how it does this year as we transplanted it right before winter last year.
Blessings,
LWM
Last night as I tried to sleep I felt something kicking my chair, it had been awhile since my chair had been kicked but I smiled as I knew it was Michael.
I opened my eyes and there he stood, dressed in his armor. When I saw that I knew it wasn’t a friendly visit for cookies and milk.
"Hi Michael, what’s up?" I asked.
"You are needed," was all he said.
He touched my arm and the next thing I knew I was in the large, now familiar table, room. He led me to my seat and then moved silently into the shadows.
The Angels Isda and Risnuch came in to the room and they spoke to me. "Do you remember the last time we talked?" asked Isda. (See November 10th 2007 for that post)
"Yes" I said, "it’s been awhile"
"Last Nov to be exact, Isda replied. We told you to warn all to prepare for hard times. Well now we call you once more to warn you that the times are here and they will become harder. Food will cost much money, when you can get it. Cloth will cost as well so be sure to learn to mend those clothes that you have. Travel will become even worse than it is now.
You must learn to depend on each other, to help each other. If you see food that is cheap and easy to get, get some for yourself and for your neighbors as well.
Be as generous as you can be, even if people try to hurt you or take advantage of you, continue to care and continue to share as well as you can.
Yet you must also adjust you way of living, you have to plant a garden if you have room; you must learn self-sufficiency. Do not take things for granted any longer but say outloud how blessed you are so the universe can hear this and can continue to send you these blessings.
As hard as it will be, it will be easier for those who have made ready, who cling to the light, who put caring and love before greed and who do their best to do what is right even if it is not popular.
Now I will speak to you of money, only because it is used to buy foods and necessities. Save what you can. Beware of the banks, for when the economy falls apart, and if things continue as they are now it will happen soon, money will be lost and many will be in great peril.
So keep some safely close to you to use. Also think of stocking up on things to barter with, on skills you have that could be used in bartering and so on. I know this sounds desperate but times call for us to warn you. This is not just a month or year thing that is occurring but a 3-3 ½ year period that is happening all about you now."
Then Raphael, who had entered a few minutes after Isda started speaking, stood up.
"It is my turn now to speak with you, there is a great wave of illness like you can not imagine coming. It has already begun and it is gaining in strength. It will kill many and drive others mad with pain and fear. This illness will touch humans but there will be others that take animals as well, but maybe not in such great numbers.
Be strong and protect yourself as best you can. Build up your immunities as naturally as possible. The Lady and Lord have given you natural plants and herbs to help with this. Use natural antibiotics when you can and natural healing when you can.
Trust yourself in the hands of the Lady and Lord but do what you can to stay away from regions where there are outbreaks, for at least 3 months after the outbreak ends.
Look after yourself; look after those you love and stay in tune with the lands energies as well as continual conversations with the Lady and Lord.
Pay attention to everyone and every thing, there are many dark and sick spirits about now and more occurring each day. The darkness posses the souls of many. Crimes and killings go up, beating go up, senseless acts of hate are running rampant, and there are riots and anger seethes everywhere.
This is the way of darkness and it is feeding on these sick and mindless souls. Light Workers must keep calm, and make ready for battle against this dark onslaught.
Then Raphael hugged me and said, "I am sorry I cant stay I have much healing work to do and many healers to awaken in these troubled days."
Next Michael came forward and showed me a screen, on it showed pictures of wars and of people dying. I saw homeless people in camps and in the streets. I saw checkpoints that asked to see papers as you traveled from on place to another. I saw national id cards used to keep track of us and to put some of us in "containment camps." I saw sickness, so many sick and so many dead. I saw this all around the world not just in the USA.
I saw food dying on the vines and floods wiping out harvests. People killing for shoes or for sandwiches. So much pain so many hurting so many lost and so many many in need. I cried.
He showed me other places as well, places that seemed safe and invisible to that going on around it, shielded and protected. These were colonies of people drawn together to work and help the light. To help others as they could, people who were clinging to the lighted way. Darkness beat at their doors but it could not get in. These places too were all around the world.
They were small at first but as the times continued so did the size of the colonies, many of the children right now were strong leaders in caring and giving hope and they worked hard for the Light.
After I finished seeing so many images, many I can not put into words, Michael said I needed to continue doing all I can to warn others.
That depending on the Angels, the Lady and Lord was good but it was also important to be grounded and be aware of what was going on around you.
That even if you could say, Oh the angles will take care of me or the Lady and Lord will, it would help so much more if you actually did some of the needed work yourself. For the Lady and Lord as well as the angels will be very busy doing what they must to help human kind and the world. Each Person and Light Worker must be responsible for themselves as much as possible, that is why you are here right now in this moment in time. So that you can aid in the battle of Dark and LIGHT, so you must learn to listen to what is said, act on it and be responsible for yourself. So open your eyes prepare for the worst and be ready to shine your loving light on those in need as you can.
Do not be afraid to protect yourself on any level from the darkness but do not use it as an excuse to cause wars and hate as well. Balance in all things and compassion.
Do not forget to laugh and to sing yet do not forget to be mindful of your environment and those about you.
Then the strangest thing happened, Lights went off everywhere, the room began to close all the portals and Angles were running in all directions. Michael grabbed my arm and ran with me to a platform.
I managed a quick, "What’s going on?"
He looked tense and for the first time I knew I would not want to anger him for he was every inch a solider and I don’t mind saying a bit scary.
His Wings had turned an iridescent Raven Black in color and there was no laughter in his eyes.
"Angel Wars" was all he said. Then "The Light must battle back the darkness and each day it gets bolder and bolder"
Then I was in my room, Michael gave me a quick kiss on the forehead and said "Remember what you were told, I will tell you more when the time is right. I must go now. I am needed."
And that is all there is right now to share…believe if you will, if it rings true listen and heed my words. If it sounds like a good story then do as you will with it. Listen to the little voice inside and decide from there, I know what I believe. I was told to share this communication with you and I have done so, if you accept it or not is all yours to decide.
I am Blessed and so are you
LWM
Hi everyone,
I have some kinda fun pictures I got the other day and I thought I would share them with you. See it has been kinda cold in ND with snow and all so we decided to have a fire in the fireplace the other day. It was nice and warm and we let it burn for awhile. When we were done we let it burn out and left the living room. The next day I thought it would be nice to have another fire. My roommate went to make the fire and I noticed the tiles. There before my eyes were tiny little foot prints in the ashes, no one had been there since we left yesterday so it couldn’t have been from us.. I couldn’t believe it, there they were, Faery feet!
Maybe they were roasting marshmallows (like I did) or maybe they were cold as well but I thought you might get a kick out of looking at the pictures I took. Now the pictures aren’t as clear as the actual footprint was because the tiles glared so much and it was to dark without the flash but I think you will be able to see them fairly well.
The first picture is a picture of the fireplace and where the footprints were in regard to the fireplace
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The second and third pictures are cut outs and close ups of the footprints. Nothing else was done to the pictures.
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Ok so let me know what you think. I think its pretty interesting
Blessings,
LWM
Hey everyone, How goes your life? I haven’t been blogging like I should because I have been busy. But I have a few minutes right now so I thought I would drop you a line and say Hello.
Well as you know the past few months my life has been, let’s say hard. BUT I was told by the Angel Like Beings (ALBs) that I talk with to say I AM BLESED every morning and night and things would change. Well guess what they have! I am BLESSED, things have turned around dramatically, life is better and I have paid readings I am doing, not to mention the Knobbly stories seem to be taking off well.So if your life is down and falling apart I am telling you to try this I AM BLESSED thing, put it on your blog so that people read it when they come to your site (all that positive energy is amazing) say it every morning even if you don’t really feel it, say it at lunch when you eat, and at night before you go to sleep. In a short period of time you actually see a difference. It truly is amazing, these ALBs still amaze me with all they do to help us.
Anyway that’s it for tonight, Just know that if ANY of you need a person to talk with, cry to or just a friend I am but a e-mail away and I will make time for you .silverhoofs@att.net Each and everyone of you is BLESSED you just need to claim it.
A Blessed
LWM
Ok I told you I would let ya all know when the pages were up for the Knobbly Book and they are now.
Here's the URL, we take paypal (cause its easier all around)
http://www.silverhoofs.com/knobseries.htm
The website requires a minimum 15.00 purchase to use the paypal cart and I am trying to figure out how to change this. Until I do if you just want to purchase the Knobbly Single Book for $7.95 or the Authors Autographed Copy for $10.00 e-mail me and I will send you an invoice.
Blessings,
LWM
Hey everyone yesterday was April 1st, April fools day and the day I opened my metaphysical store Silver Hoofs way back in 1990, that’s 18 years ago. It has went through many growth changes from a physical store front for ten years to exclusively on line to now its newest incarnation of online with some products being sold at a physical store again. Here’s the address on the shop I am selling things at
Golden Needle Tattoo is located at 1825 Main Avenue, Moorhead, Minnesota. Stop by for a visit or give us a call at 218-236-8560
And a link to a map to get to the store if you’re in the area (Anita is the owner and is a wonderful person)http://www.goldenneedletattoo.com/how-to-find-us.html
Wow, who would have ever thought it, me actually doing something for this long? See I am a bit of a rover and don’t land or do anything for any to long. I never seemed to be able to keep interest in anything to long so many in my family said I was a looser and a lost soul. They may have been correct because I was a lost soul always looking for something that would fill the hole within, something that would make a difference and would help the world, but I could never explain it to them or maybe they didn’t want to listen.
In anycase I was/am the black sheep, the one who could never seem to get it all together. Yet when I created Silver Hoofs (not alone mind you but with the help of 3 other dear friends who helped so much in those early days) I felt the hands of the Lady on my shoulder and the God leading me. I felt I had found my home.
This was my calling and in the 18 years of working and serving I can’t truly say there is a day I regret. Sure there were days that were trying and some hard but I wouldn’t trade them in for the world. So many people I have visited with, so many have touched my life and I hope I have touched theirs in a positive way. So many lonely people who I saw bloom before my very eyes with just a bit of love and Light from the Lady and Lord. So very hurting and looking for a way to fill the holes within themselves.
I am so glad I was "a late bloomer" who never had their feet on the ground because with out it I would never have been able to dedicate my entire life and being to the Lady and Lord of Light and then to the Loving Service of Others.
When I started Silver Hoofs I promised the Lady 10 years and then my life would be my own to do with what I wanted. To go where I pleased and to work as I willed. Well 10 years has come and gone and ya know what? I am exactly where I want to be, doing exactly what I want to do and working, as I will.
The Lady and Lords work changed my heart and soul and I am blessed to serve, as They will me to. I could never imagine walking away from the many in need and so after 10 years I select to continue just as I am, reaching out to the world and trying to make it a better place. I pray that all the days of my life I am given this opportunity to serve the Light and all those in need and that in yet another 10 years on April 1st I am feeling and doing the same thing I am now and feeling so very content with it all.
Blessings All,
A very happy & content LWM 
Hey everyone, if you get a chance please stop by my friends new blog, She hasnt ever had one before and this is her first venture into cyber world. She could use a great bravenet welcome and a bit of encouragement. Her name is Lady Wyntiers Song
http://shadowgod7.bravejournal.com/Well the book is
finally done and ready for sale. It’s a childrens book (soon to be a series so far we have 5 books in process) I am excited to get it out to see how it does I co-wrote it with my best friend and its such cute stories.As soon as we are ready I will be placing it on my website for sale. We will be selling the book itself for around $7.95. Then there is the Autographed book (both Addy Ventures signature and A Bud Dee’s) this is the only way to get both authors to sign the book (Unless you buy the deluxe edition) for about $10.99. Then there is the Deluxe set that is limited to 50 sets. These are signed, numbered and come with a cute 7" inch long gray squirrel finger puppet.
Heres what the back cover says:
The Adventures of Knobbly
A Most Precocious Squirrel
Volume 1

These are the stories of Knobbly, a grey squirrel, who lives in the Misty Forest. He is a most precocious (eager and curious) little adventurer, who goes out into the world for the 1st time. He meets new friends, learns to live on his own and even spends time loving the magick of life as he celebrates the Winter Solstice in the Faery Village.
Come join Knobbly on his adventures and learn all he has to share. What wonderful escapades await you in the covers of this book. Now open your heart and let the Magick of the Universe unfold!
OK So that’s it, Please Please Please, let me know what you think of the back cover description. I so want these stories to make a difference in the lives of so many. They are cute, fun and often have a wonderful Light worker kind of message to share with kids. I really value your feed back and idea.Blessings,
LWM 
I have gotten several, lets call them "interactions and reactions" to my recent posts on my point of ending it all. Many are trying to be uplifting but come off insulting when you think about it. They often do the "I told ya so thing so I should get kudos for that" or they say things that are hurtful in a back handed insulting way. Of course it is always done with their "loving" intent mind you, and then they proceed to cram the way they see religion down your throat or even worse how they KNOW Your religion is. Which is wrong and they havent really a clue what I believe or teach yet they are making judgments on what I should and shouldn’t continue to do in my spiritual walk.
Instead of responding I just look down, sigh and wipe away a tear. I know they mean well but the pain of them trying to guide me (telling me what is right and wrong) instead of celebrating what I have discovered with me is hard to swallow. I feel like a child whose mom is wagging the finger saying "ohh you should have known better" when All I want was a hug and a good job.
Anyway after thinking about it I decided it might be good to post this, maybe it will help others as well. This is a hand out I give to my students, I think you may find it useful :-)
Learning to fight your battles
There is nothing worse that a zealot. Any zealot! What's that you ask? It's the religious fanatic that everyone avoids like the plague that intends to recruit an army to follow their enlightened way of thinking. You know the type. They run from person to person shouting out their own personal truths sure that they have found the only way. They shout from mountain top to mountaintop, they can be found I the middle of yelling protests as well as quite coffee bars. They slink around listening just waiting to pounce, to tell you the way it should be.
Zealots can be any religion from Christians to Moslems to Hindus to even Pagans. Yes you too can act as if you have a corner on the market of Higher Self and Spiritual Well being. And you to can be just as much of an ass (excuse my French) and as annoying as any well meaning Christian who corners you and try's to shove their bible down your throat.
Because this often happens to new seekers or those still fresh in the Craft I have included a story I heard along time ago. It has helped me many times to decide if my retort to something was worthwhile or if it was just going to make me look as stupid as the guy yelling. I have found it a good measuring stick and one I hope helps you deiced if the battle is worth engaging in and if the winner will truly win anything at all. Think it over deeply and then decide!
I leave you with this story it goes like this:
There once was a Zen priest that lived alone outside of the city. A young girl (unknown to the priest) and her father came to him one day and dropped his daughter at the priests door step, saying "You have dishonored my daughter and you must take care of her and the child." The priest looked at him and the girl and replied "Is that so?"
He took the girl in and fed her and clothed her. Yet never spoke of the lies she had told her father about the child. The girl would often go to the town to see the father of her child who was of a family that her father hated. Months went by and the child was born, the priest continued to care for the girl and the child.
One day the young man of the girl went to the priest and said that he wanted to take the child and the girl and marry. He was the father and it was only right that he do his duty. The Priest replied "Is that so?" So the boy took the girl and child and they were married.
The father of the girl upon hearing of the marriage was ashamed of his behavior towards the priest, and came crawling to the priest. He spoke saying to the priest "You are not the father of the child." The priest looked at him once more and said "Is that so?"
Even more shamed than before the girl's father asked 'Why did you not deny it when I accused you the first time?' The priest stood for a moment and said, "Would it truly have made a difference in your mind?"
I think this tells us to look at our battles well, ask yourself if your point will truly make a difference, or would it be more prudent to answer "Is that so?" So when you are ready to engage in a heated argument or when someone is yelling at you about going to hell or some other such huetful thing, look them in the eyes, think it over.
Will what you say really make a difference to what they already think, are they ready to listen and hear you, if the answer is no (and it usually is when they are shouting) Then just react like the priest and say "Is that so?"
If however you maybe able to discuss your views in an open and accepting way that people will really listen than there is nothing wrong with sharing with those who wish to understand. However zealots are seldom open to hearing the facts as they have already made up their minds!
May You Always Walk In Wisdom,
Lady Wolfen Mists

Boy what a wild ride my life has taken this past month or so. Everyday there was something else, something more that tore the life out of me, that broke my already splinter heart, that drove me to the edge and took away my light. Pushing me, beseeching me to kill myself, to end it all…saying it would never get better, that I would spend the rest of my days in fear, pain and tears. I had all but given up; nay I had given up. I went so far as to search the Internet to find painless ways to kill myself, I found them. I collected what I needed.
I spoke to the darkness that it had won, each day more and more poured out upon me, illness, trials, tribulations, humiliation, feeling alone. Losing everything I worked all my life for, staining my name so much more. I had no heart left, no compassion, no will to live on and I wanted it to end.
People standing there cheering me on meant nothing, I was so deeply in pain so over the point of no return and I continued to fall. These cheerleaders didn’t understand, they weren’t there beside me, no personal e-mails, no one to talk with, their love was not real and no one was helping me on the material. All the love in the world doesn’t pay the bills and NO ONE was there to help me.
I begged old friends who abandoned me to come and help, I was in tears and I was on my knees "Please, Please if we were ever friends, help me. Just answer a question. I want nothing else from you…Just the answer to one question." The question had to do about my car, nothing hard but dreadfully important to me at the time.
My phone calls were not returned, they did not care. I was alone, I was broken, I was afraid and I wanted to die. I had no one, no family, no friends, no one and I was desperate to find a reason to live. None appeared.
A few unexpected friends came to my side…I will never forget their kindness and I will never be able to repay them. I will also never forget those who ignored me in my pain and I invoke the 3x10 fold law that they experience the same compassion in their life that they gave to me. May the Universe show them what it is they have planted and reap, it’s not up to me…
Any way during all this I could not reach my Angels, I called to them. I prayed, I cast spells I did all I knew. I cried to the Bright Lady and did not hear Her. I wailed to the God and I thought I felt His hand but want sure. I held my feather so tight it imprinted into my hand. I could not reach any of them or hear them.
The darkness continued to attack me (in so many ways you would think I was making it all up) but it was there. Actively pursuing me. I gave up completely and totally, annihilated, shattered and destroyed. Except that was not enough for the darkness, it wanted more, it wanted me to give up my soul to it (I think at that point I would have as broken as I was for I did not care what happened to me.)
Then it wanted me to curse the Light, it was a step to far, something I would never do. I refused. In my refusal I took back some power and as I continued to refuse I grew more powerful and I knew that there would be an end if I just waited. I began saying, "There must be a reason, there must be."
In my depression, illness and pain I had not been able to sleep well. Yet one night I slept and there he was…beside my chair. Not kicking it, not teasing me but lightly and gently caressing my cheek. "Cub, I have been here but you couldn’t hear me, I have stood at your side each second of the day as you tore away at yourself. I have never left you and as bad as it was you were not alone. I have battled this onslaught beside you fighting tirelessly this attack as you sobbed for help. I have not left you and I never never will. Come Cub we have places to go."
Within seconds we were off down hallways that rang a bell in my mind. Then I was at a campfire, there was a picnic table and a feast on it. A woman tended the fire, I had been here before and I ran to her and hugged her tight. "Mother, where have you been? I needed you, I called you and you didn’t answer. I gave up."
Hugging me tightly she, she dried my tears with her sleeve and said," I have been here waiting for you. I heard you each night and I tried to come to you, you wouldn’t let me and I couldn’t force you."
I hung my head in shame, " I doubted you, I gave up and I almost gave in."
She led me to the table and sat beside me, "But you are here now and that’s all that matters, you are here and we will help you"
Through the bushes I heard movement and then appeared the God, holding a basket of bread and meat. " Oh you’re here, we have been waiting for you steadfastly. From the moment the darkness began its attack against you we have been right here, waiting for you to come to us. Hoping you would remember the way…we waited." He hugged me and kissed my cheek.
Then they feed me, healed me and restored my soul. There were a lot of things that I would rather not share as it is private and means nothing to anyone but me. But then they said it was time to talk.
They explained that in my cursing the darkness in my post on Feb 2 2008 I had openly declared war against the darkness and it could not let it pass. The darkness had used those energies (my negative cursing) in their battle against me. Reflecting to me that which I had sent out, by the 3-fold law. That as angry as we are at the darkness cursing is not the way for it keeps us in that mindset/energy flow. Negativity on any level is not good for any soul and such energies can be used against you. That is what the darkness did, it used your negative energies (aimed at the darkness) against you and brought you to your knees with it. Instead of damning it, as you did shine light on it. Send it love that it might find its way from where it is, send it the Light of Illumination and Truth and let it find its own way.
I listened intently and asked but isn’t it right to be angry at the Darkness for all that it has done, as it a war of the spirit we are in?
"Yes, it is," replied the God. "There is such a thing as righteous anger but it is not found in damning the entity. It is found in the behavior that entity does. The wrongness of hurting another is never acceptable but the cursing any living soul is always defeating to the one sending the curse. Your righteous indignation in your war against the darkness should always include loving energies and compassion yet full rejection of the actions the darkness exhibits. In this way your energies are based in the light and can not be twisted against you. You work from your higher self as you war against the negativity and show the loving lighted path you strive to be a part of. "
Thinking hard I understood what was being said. As good as my intentions were, returning negativity with negativity no matter what the reason was not the way. Not only was it bad for my spiritual evolution but it could be twisted (energy wise) and used against me. I needed to learn better ways of doing things and now I had an understanding of how to battle this darkness and the attacks it made on me. No longer would I damn it, instead I would welcome it with love and light, shining upon it all the truth and loving compassion I could muster. It was then I remembered how when in the pits before, with Shadow (the dog) and Perth (the cat) how the swords of the angels tore at the darkness with light. How the darkness ran from the light. There was the key…. Not hate but love. Darkness can’t take love, light, compassion and truth. That was what I shall arm myself with now.
The Bright Lady now took my hands in hers and said, " The universe is a tricky place and what you say has meaning. When you say, my life is hard but getting better, it hears that and gives you what you say you have. A hard life that gets better, but each day the universe must keep giving you things that make it hard because you have said it is so. The universe hears all things and makes it happen that way. So you must learn to think before you speak. How will this be heard by the universe? What will it cause the universe to deliver? When you say my life sucks, it will deliver that? When you say I wish to be a success it will do that too, it will keep you wishing to be a success. You must be DIRECT, CONSISE and SIMPLE in what you say. The best way to learn this is to everyday say I am Blessed. The Universe blesses me with positive abundance and loving energies.
I nodded in understanding. "I will think before I speak my Lady and I will begin and end each day with this. I will add it to the opening of my Blog page so the universe will see this and each time it is read it will gain more positive energy and I will be blessed because I am blessed and I am ever grateful to be your child. Thank you for loving me and for never giving up on me, even when I gave up on myself and on you. Thank you and Bless the Lighted path that I walk."
Once more hugs went all around and I noticed the Great God wipe away a tear as well. We laughed, we talked, we played and I was renewed in spirit and soul. Soon it was time to return to my chair and Michael appeared.
He took my hand and led me to the portal that takes me to my chair. He said, "Ya know Cub you really have no need of me for this anymore, you have been here enough you know the way yourself. You can get here anytime you need or want." He looked a bit sad.
I kissed his cheek, " I may know the way myself Michael but your being here always makes the journey so much better. I think I will keep you a bit longer…. I need you so, but don’t ask me to ever say that again."
He messed my hair and gave me a brotherly push. "Come on, I have other things to do then escort you about the dimensions and planes." Pulling me through the portal and into my chair. Bending as he tucked me into my chair for the umpteenth time, "Seriously are you gonna be OK? I am here and I will never leave you. No matter what, even if it feels like I have gone it is but a trick of the darkness. Run to your higher self, Use your Dark Night powder. All this will help you remember you are blessed then you will see me, you will hear the words of the Bright Lady and Lord. Remember you are Loved no matter what you do, for all eternity."
Throwing both arms around his neck I buried my face there. "I think I will be fine, no.. I WILL BE FINE. I may have days I slip back because I am an edge walker but I will make it and I will not only be blessed but I WILL SHINE! Oh and I love you too. Now go on get out of here I need to sleep and heal."
So ends this ALB communication and so ends the battle of cursing the darkness. I will now longer curse anything. I will turn it over to the universe. I will invoke the 3 fold laws and I will let it go, as the universe hears all and responds. I will say everyday I AM BLESSED & I SHINE!
A learning
LWM 
A comment on what is going on in my life and how I am feeling. I am seeking help and I don’t plan anything. These are just my feelings and I write them out to help me make sense of them. I am only human and I have frailties as others do, I will keep trying to fight my way back as I desperately hold onto my Angelic feather and pray for help
Will your Soul hear me?
© LWM March 12, 2008
Its over you know I’ve decided
But when I do not know
This light will slowly blow out
And home I finally go
No I’m not gonna do it tomorrow
I may wait a week or a year
I’ll walk this tired old road
Until there’s nothing left to fear
Why is it always about money?
Why is it about what we can buy?
What’s the point we are making?
When all we do is lie
What ever happened to caring
About those in a life
Whose time is spent in sharing
But in reality enveloped in strife
I may not be smart as others
My gifts, limited to a chair
But I try to be a good person
Reaching out to show I care
I am alone in my struggles
No one seems to care
The light inside is dying
And I am laid bare
The wolves are at the door
To take what I though was mine
Soon under the bridge I will live
Oh how the darkness will dine
Will your soul hear me?
Will you reach out to one in need?
Will you share your money, your life and your love
Or will you say how nice they were, to bad they did the deed?
Look at the edge that I am on where I teeter precariously
My days filled with depression, pain & agony
My nights with fear & anxiety
My Goddess I cry what will happen to me?
So its over you know I’ve decided
But when I do not know
This light will slowly blow out
And home I finally go

UPDATE: I am doing better than post below, still deep in the darkness but fighting back. I am an edge walker and I often think of ending it all, this past few weeks it has been on my mind often and I have activily thought out a plan. But I have put that "plan" aside for awhile longer and am clinging to the tiny shard of light I see.
I am holding my Angel feather tightly and trying hard to leave the darkness far behind me. It’s so sad that people just don’t often comprehend how their actions, anger and ignorance can cause great hurt and everlasting pain in the life of another. I have experienced the pain of several all at once leaving me writhing and alone.
In this recent situation I became so very aware of how physical dependent I am on my health care aid best friend, when she was suddenly and unexpectedly missing from my life (not her fault at all.) But I was alone, unable to do much and unable to fend for myself. This was hard for me as I was/am a very independent person and to see I could hardly go from one room to another was more than I could take. If I must live this way I did not want to live. I couldn’t even make my own food or get out to my car through the snow. I never felt so alone or helpless in my life, money issues are overwhelming and I fell deeper and deeper into the dark pit. I was lost and alone, no one to call for help, Alone. I never did good alone and I was devastated. It was/is a deeply painful time yet i also found the swooping in of people I never expected to help me and I am once more trying to climb from this pit I seem to find myself in.
Yet I fear if I am left alone in the physical to live by myself I do not think I will be able to crawl out of this pit and the darkness may very well swallow me up. Pray for me my friends, send me your positive energies and once me lead me to the light.
Forgive me as I heal and try to get my life back in shape and back in harmony. I may not be around much…to much crap going on to talk about but know that I AM trying and I hope to be back on top soon. I will do my best not to cross the edge and I will keep myself on the lighted path as best my human mind will allow. I may make mistakes but I will keep trying as long as I can hold out.
Blessings,
LWM
I am here , I am having a really hard time in my life right now. Everything is falling apart. I have lost my internet access as well so I have to keep this short, using the old dial up.
I will write more when I can, life is hard and I am out of sorts.
Blessings,
LWM
Most recent ALBs communication
Its around 2 am and I am finally sleeping. I can’t lay down on the bed at all anymore as I choke and can’t breath, so I am 100% in the chair. It has gotten worse as of late and I can’t even lay the chair back as I choke and lose my breath. I feel much rage, anger, hate and pain in the world as the energies seep into my mind. I do my best to beat it down but I notice I am mean at times and irritable. Why? I do not know.LW