OK this month’s (NOV 20090) Act of Light is fun and easy. Go find at least one stone, it can be pebble sized which can be carried or paper weight sized which can be used to on a desk.

http://www.care2.com/send/pickup/1302-75453-28997-2753

Acts of Light Challenge

Oct 2009

OK So I thought I WAS DONE! I thought when the Angels told me I didn’t have to relay anymore messages of what was coming I could crawl into a corner and sleep. Guess its not to be, Michael has been kicking my chair and prodding me to do what I was instructed, I kept putting it off, ignoring it till it haunts my every waking minute so here it is.

Every month or two there will be a challenge put out called ACTS OF LIGHT they are little things each of us can do that month to help the light and to help others and ourselves, for in helping another we help ourselves. When we are sad or down or depressed reaching out to someone else who is the same or worse brings light to the world and to the heart of the receiver as well as the giver and lightens the pain and darkness inside. So if you are experiencing darkness, a feeling of "just get it over with" then here is some thing you can do to help stop that feeling and combat the darkness that surrounds us

This month of Oct your challenge is simple and easy just walk up to at least 1 person who you sense has been abused, someone who is hurting and down, who is crying inside and wanting to let go and smile at them then tell them that they are truly and Amazing soul and you admire them. Tell them you see how hard they try and what a difference they make and that is to be admired. That’s all!

Watch how they change! Watch their spirit rise and how the smile touches their heart, watch what your words do to lift the pain and chase back the darkness. Then Dear Ones, feel how it makes you feel, how it helps you rise from the pit of apathy and sadness to caring and hope and share that kindness again and again as you can if you like.

So there is your Oct Challenge reach out and do an ACT OF LIGHT

(Now let me get some sleep)

LWM

Hey everyone,

Just a short update on me. I haven’t been around much, been run down and tired. Having some minor heart things but getting better will be back soon

Thought you might like to hear about our newest friend, Mister Uff Da. Hes a gray squirrel that we are feeding and boy is he eating. Hes getting so big. I say he runs on 3 legs and uses the 4^th to hold his tummy saying "uff da" each time he has to jump or move to fast. Then there’s little red, a zippy quick red squirrel that is like a bullet, in and out grabbing a piece of bun or cake and taking it back it its hidie hole. Little red is very shy unlike Mister uff da and doesn’t socialize for long at all. Mister uff da will peer in the patio door if theres not enough food to his liking out there….

The Fae are gathering for a long cold winter, so I guess that may mean we need to get ready as well. I see them dancing in the falling leaves and gathering seeds and nuts. They are now asking for us to build them a doll house to live in, now I ask you in this tiny new apartment where would I put a doll house and where would I get the money for one? The fae don’t seem to care that I am poor lol.

Well that’s all for now, take care I will write more when I feel better. Blessings to you all

LWM

I have been waiting to write this down as I wanted to get it just right so here goes. I was sleeping and was awakened by a great blue light, I opened my sleepy eyes and was startled to see before me a life size, actually larger than life sized, full roman like armor. It was like Michael’s armor only the not the same color and not as shiny. Being tired I just closed my eyes and pretended didn’t see it…..Maybe it would go away and I could get some sleep and get over this cold. I hate summer colds!

Well that was not to be, I didn’t anymore then get my eyes closed that the familiar thunk, thunk, thunk, beat the side of my chair. A soft voice wove its way into my brain and gently woke me up, "Come on cub I know you saw it, lets get to work and then you can sleep."

I opened my eyes only to find myself in a room I had never been before. It was a big room with lots of tools and tables around. There was a wall full of swords and shields as well as other armor. I was sitting on a bench before a table, on the table was a bunch of roman like armor laid out. There were other Angels there working on sharpening swords of light with these black obsidian looking wheels that spun at great speeds and created a sharp edge on the swords. The swords emitted a laser like focused light and seemed to sing as it was swung through the air, I was mesmerized with them.

Michael took my arm and made me stand, next thing I knew 2 other angels surrounded me and I was being clothed. I was clipped, hooked, fastened and clamped. The under layer of fabric was place on me as I stood and next actual armor was placed over that. The next thing I knew I was encased in a complete set of armor. Michael told me to walk, squat, turn and swing my arms. Adjustments were made and soon everything was perfect. It was amazing and light in weight, Yet I wasn’t sure why I needed it. I didn’t dare ask as Michael was in soldier mode and one doesn’t interrupt when he’s like that, he will tell you what you need to know when he’s ready so I waited. He said something to the other Angels and they removed the armor once more, I was kinda sad cause I liked the way it felt.

He turned to me and said "sit" I did. He sat beside me and took my hand. "Cub, you have come a long way, we have had many adventures and I have shared much of what is to come with you…but all things must end. Those days are over my cub. I can no longer tell you what is to come because it is no longer coming it is here. We have been warning for years and now the warning is done. Today we no longer say it comes, we scream its here and it is seeking each and everyone of your souls. No matter how good it may seem, no matter how it may deceive you. Do not believe for a second it has gone away, it hides in the shadows and it plans to end all free will and all life. We are in a fight for life and free will for your universe as you know it, we are no longer preparing.

There will be no more messages of warning to give out, any messages you may share will be what is happening now and what the darkness is doing to battle us. The days of trying to warn or convince others are over, they have made their decisions and now we must take our stand.

At this point the Angels returned with the Armor all shiny and glowing blue. The fabric was blue but the cape was a deep purple, I loved it. The chest plate had a lion on it and I couldn’t help but reach out to touch it. The angels dressed me once more in the armor and helmet this time.

"I give you this day your armor to fight in the battle, a true Light Warrior under my banner."

Another angel came beside Michael and gave him something. He turned to take it and uncovered it,

"Cub I picked this for you." Turning to me he held out the most amazing sword I had ever seen, handing to me I was amazed at its weight in my hand. It felt lightweight and seemed to be a part of me. It was smaller then all the other angel swords so it had been tooled just for me, I could not believe it, especially for me, my use! It had an amethyst and tanzanite on the hilt as well as several other stones and I was amazed. The actual blade emitted the same blue light I had seen in the pit where the angels had fought the darkness back. I was so moved I simply cried and could say nothing, I grabbed his hand and kissed it, he ruffled my hair.

I placed the sword in the scabbard and put it on. As I put it on I heard it speak to me. It talked to me and told me its name and much more. Then Michael told me that I may come and go on this level of the heavens as I please now, when I please. I no longer need an escort and that I may wear my armor as I like as well, for I am a true Light Warrior under his banner. He will see me when he can and keep me informed, we will still take time off together as before but as he said the time for warnings are over. Now is the time for battle and this battle may take many many years for we will not give in, we will fight the darkness and every shadow until free will is safe and spiritual souls are secure in their journeys.

That it is my friends, that is all I will share with you this day. I am amazed and prayed to the Lady And Lord I can live up to this great honor. I hope you have been listening these past years to the warnings. I pray you have decided what side you will stand with and I hope it is the light.

Blessings

LWM

What can I tell you of the light, no messages from the angles but the most unusual things going on. Constant oppression from Negative entities talking with me. Let me start at the beginning. I has decided to take a break from my angel work, no more announcements because I felt very few were listening and I had pretty much said everything there was to say, so I was done gonna back away.

I found a site to talk on and visit people called blogtv it has adults and kids but it was fun so I stayed and met some amazing people. Then it started…private messages from strangers. Weird messages… I thought it was from kids but when I checked the name it said the person wasn’t on line. It felt wrong, my discernment went wild and I knew it was a negative entity I was talking with. The conversation went something like this.

Entity: Do you follow the light

Me: Yes

E: Save me

M: I do not save I guide

E: teach Me

M: You already know you are following the wrong path or you wouldn’t be looking for a way out

E: My way is right yours is flawed

And so it went on and on, every thing I said was challenged and twisted until I told it to begone I do not traffic with demons, its reply was Follow ME

M: never

E: I can give you everything you ever wanted and more (it knew my name)

M: There is nothing you can give me that wasn’t mine to be had when I was born in the light

E: FOLLOW ME!!

M: NEVER! LOL at you

E: Are you laughing at me, why? I am the prince of darkness

M: You wish, you are a scared child running in the darkness trying to get power and strength

E: I am no Child Follow ME and I will show you

M: Never in all eternity will I voluntarily follow you or your kind

E: We scare you don’t we, why do you hide from me

M: I do not hide, I am right here, here let me get that light for you so you can see better

E: Come to us, Follow our ways

M: NO

E: Others Will if you don’t

M: Then I will be there fighting for them as well

E: Then we will meet again

M: That is up to you

That was the end of that message, I thought it was over, a fluke if you will, but somewhere inside it gnawed at my mind. A day later I got another one much like it with the follow me and no one on line by this name at this time. This time it attacked me more strongly, tried to entice me with logic and prove to me how darkness made sense and I should follow it and tell my students that it was the true way. I laughed at it and told it No I would never follow it, to be gone. Still it continued. I broke off conversation and it followed me. The third day it came again this time speaking of helping others and helping others out of the darkness, stepping into the pit and lifting them out, allowing those there to use me as a ladder to be lifted up from. I said NO because I know what it was up to, trying to drag me down and keep me locked in there. I stopped all contact and refused anymore messages.

Yet I wonder why the personal attacks, and I know it is not just me it is happening to. I know others are having dreams and feelings of great darkness. The darkness is trying to pull as many in as it can. As I said to a dear friend the time for messages to make ready is over, the reality of the situation is here I can no longer warn you of what is to come I can only say what is here now.

Be aware and stand true to what you believe, things may look better in some light but remember that the darkness can make things look good Don’t not be fooled, stay true to what you believe and work within the Lighted Positive Path. If you are having dark feelings or dreams know that you are being oppressed by the darkness and it must go away when you tell it to, so say "BEGONE I do not traffic with your kind! I am a child of the Lighted Path and I work only with it."

So that’s it for now my dear ones, keep safe and be kind to each other for there is enough cruelty in the world. Be the light you are meant to be

Love

LWM

Hello all its been awhile hasn’t it. I wanted to write but I just have been out of sorts if you know what I mean. With the move and all I havent felt the best and havent really been up to making anything new.

I have however found a place called on the computer that’s called blog tv that’s interesting. They have some nice rooms there that people chat in. I am there as Ladywolfenmists, the url is http://www.blogtv.com/

If you come over be sure to "friend" me. There are kid rooms there as well which can be annoying but I just ignore them. If your interested e-mail me and I will send you a few of the good rooms (some metaphysical) I go to.

Theres another place called Blogstar that I tried to go to but have found them to be very clicky and hard to get to know. Theres a group that are the big shots and they ignore new people a lot and don’t allow for them to be acknowledged but that’s just my opinion. They have metaphysical shows but I feel some of the topics are disrespectful as well as some of the comments, again just my opinion. Here is the url if you want to check the place out yourself. http://www.blogstar.com/

There is one good show called Wolf Paranormal Investigations which is very good and friendly, but my friend Holly http://thehollytree.bravejournal.com/

runs that. Here is her blogstar page http://www.blogstar.com/people/9099

What else…. Oh 3 of my friends have been able to find houses to buy this month so that’s a good thing. I am so happy for them and a little jealous I would love to have a house again as well but the Universe will bless me with that when it is time, so in the mean time I will celebrate the wonderful event of my friends

The angels: I havent heard much from them just a bit here and there but nothing big. I decided to stop posting those experiences because I dont think many care to hear it. No one (OK 2 people) bought my book so that shows me that few care to hear about it, so I will no longer share that part of my life.

On the other hand the fae are loving the new place and are very active in the back yard. There are 3 hawks out there that they say they want to learn to ride. How fun that will be seeing the fae on the back of a small Hawk. They dance in a small field behind the house around a tree on moonlit nights I can see their blue and gold lights fliting through the air. There is also a community gardens not far from us and they love it, they steal cabbage and cucumbers and other things from it. We feed the squirrels on a small tree stump and they love it, the other day we had some old doritoes (sp?) and they went wild over them. They were happy and cittering and running all about, it was fun to watch. We have been here less then a month and already they come running to the patio door looking in for their treats, still wild mind you but begging lol.

Oh I have joined Twitter, its kinda fun heres my twitter page http://twitter.com/LadyWolfenMists so come and leave me tweets if you like

Well that’s about it for now, talk to you all more soon, Winter is creeping her way to us all and I for one am happy to see her, I missed the colder days and the snow, seems like I get a lot more done when she is about lol

Blessings to you all and keep safe

LWM

Well I guess I should give you all an update on my life, looks like I haven’t written in awhile.

I have been working on a companion book to STOP KICKIN MY CHAIR Which contains many tools of light that the ALBs have shared with me to help make things better for us. Some of the content has been published before but a lot has not, I wanted to make them available in a book that you could just go to, flip through and find a tool to help you, thus came the TOOLS OF LIGHT book.

I have made a few sales on the STOP KICIN MY CHAIR book and I got paid for them today, that was an awesome feeling, seeing that paypal in the email box saying heres your payment for this months book sales. WOW I felt like a real author. I do have to say I thought more would have bought the STOP KICKIN MY CHAIR book if for no reason then the cover is amazing but I am grateful to those who have purchased. It really is an remarkable book (if I do say so myself) and there’s not another one even close to it that I have seen, something that can be read, shared and talked about by just about everyone.

What else…lets see Oh I will be moving to a new apartment soon. It’s a little smaller but its cheaper, heat is included and they are OK with the dogs. We were looking for a house but no go. The ALBs said to make sure the heat was paid because heat is gonna be expensive this winter, so take heed my friends.

Other than that no real new messages to share, I have been kinda just resting a lot. Renewing my energies and sleeping often, and just farting around. Its nice just to relax some days but I am sure I will return to the swing of things soon, so not to worry I haven’t gone to far. Wish us luck with all the packing for the move that will keep me busy for awhile but I am stopping in checking on you all and seeing what it is your posting.

So that’s about it, take care and Blessings to you all, If I get anything major from the ALBs I will be sure to post it.

LWM

OK not to take away from the previous posts because they are important and you NEED to read them if you havent but I couldn’t hold back any longer.

THEY ARE HERE!!!! My book are ready and up on Lulu and they are wonderful . The covers are amazing! They were created by our own Az arent they amazing what a great talent he is! I so love him and his work.

I am so excited they are done and I love love love the covers , my friends have seen them and are blown away! If you want to see more of Az's work go to his website

Heres the over view of them

"Stop Kickin' My Chair"

The Adventures of Knobbly Vol.1

Description:

First I hear it creaking and slithering its way down the street, come closer with each heart beat, each breath. I smell its odor and it stinks, it smells of body sweat and desperation. It smells of blood and abuse of hopelessness and broken dreams of the many, it smells of hunger and depression, of torture and anxiety. Then I see it, its cloud of blackness rolling over everything, rolling over all that’s in its path and everything is in its path. Nothing is too insignificant or too small for it, as it eats it all up, contaminating everything it touches with its negativity. Nothing stops it or even slows it down, it does not sleep, it does not rest, it just keeps coming and spreading devastation in its path. Not the kinda devastation we expected, nothing on a grand scheme. No it is far smarter then that.

We expected great works of darkness slamming us down in masterful strokes, pulling us all in, in one or two great swoops. But no it did not happen like that, it kept us waiting and wondering, wearing us down as we kept our vigil. Light workers looking for the battle, waiting for the great charge only to be left to wonder. Wonder when the next shoe would drop, what it would be, where it would happen, we would be ready, we would fight to the death for the Light. The whole time the Darkness was inching closer and closer, we didn’t see it. It came to us and sought out our greatest worries, our biggest fears or hurts and it used them. It exploited them and still we didn’t see it, we felt it but we couldn’t understand it. It all seemed to small to take notice of, to insignificant to pay attention to. It didn’t matter it was happening to everyone everywhere, we still waited for the BIG battle and it didn’t come.

So now we are beaten down, tired overwhelmed, stress ridden and scared. We are confronted by an economy in the world that is flushing all our hopes and dreams down the toilet and we cant find a way out. We see wars in the making and they cant seem to be stopped and still in our own mundane everyday lives we are torn and twisted as if we have already been to battle and lost. Tears flow freely daily and hope dies a tortured death, dreams are broken and shattered, decisions made for our best and highest good without guilt are now reduced to guilty thoughts of a selfish person all of which couldn’t be further from the truth or the reality in which they were constructed. Yet this rolling darkness, this mass of negativity has made us buy into its reality and twisted it so we are all defective, rotten and inadequate.

Yet what can we do you say and do I even care any more. YES I cry out, yes you care, its there under that depression, that broken heart that shattered dream, that ton of guilt, its there! That small glitter of light that tiny spark of gold, that’s enough to fan the flames again, to reignite the hope, to release the depression, to mend the broken, the twisted, the sad, the hurting, the stench of negativity and burst forth once more, wiser this time, with the flames of unconditional positive love. The Light of the world and the universe is ours for the taking so TAKE! Do not buy into the darkness, into the negativity for that is what it is using to fight us with. No grand battle now, no strokes we can unite and fight back with. But small personal injuries, small ideas it plants and then we take in and let it grow that is where it hurts us, in our insecurities in our fears in our hurts. LIFT UP my warriors, Reach for the light and think on this. If the darkness has been oppressing you, if it has worn you down, if it has taken your joy in life, if times are seeming to hard and stress has mounted. If you are confused, tired and scared and don’t know where to turn then darkness has done its job. Truly I say to you, if darkness thinks so much of you as to pull you in and work on your personal insecurities, if it doesn’t think you are too small or too insignificant to over look then what a treasure and unique creation the Light MUST consider you. For whatever the darkness holds or has the Light has about a million more to the good, and you are a CHILD of the LIGHT.

So now take a breath and look at the battle going on about you right now, do not let this darkness roll upon you as it wishes. I actually saw it roll over a person riding a bike down the road. They were happy and riding very fast, they seemed to have purpose and a place to be, the darkness rolled over them and in an instant they become slow and even stopped riding. They got off the bike and trudged (yes trudged) slowly down the street. The depression they held was a palpable thing and I could feel it from where I sat. And the darkness rolled on! It even tried (and I admit with some success touched me and my heart, my fears, my insecurities) to take me in, to feed off me. As odd as this may sound rejoice in your oppression, you are doing something right to call such energies to want to feed off you, you are a fierce warrior and are needed by the Light. The darkness fears facing you or it would not be so sneaky in its attack, face it head on, call it out and say I know what you are doing and I wont buy into your reality. I AM USEFUL, I AM LOVED and I AM A GROUNDED WARRIOR OF THE POSITIVE LIGHTED PATH

When in doubt my friends, when hurting or broken, force yourself to say these words. Run them off place them every where I have one directly across from the toilet (don’t laugh) I am sure to say it often as I read it there!

I am lifted by the Light

No darkness here within my sight

I Serve the Light with all my Heart

Darkness hear me now, Depart!

Remember Dear Ones YOU ARE LOVED and I am just an e-mail away

silverhoofs@att.net

Lady Wolfen Mists

Heres my answer

Orgonite energy (also called orgone) is a wonderful life force enhancer (also called chi energy) and it claims spaces that have "dead or negative" energy and fills them with positive life force energy, it really is amazing. Orgone energy or etheric energy was detected by Dr. W Reich in the late 1930 if I remember correctly

I use orgone for many things and its simple to make just using metal filings, various crystals and stones as well as resin to hold it all together often in various shapes it then resonates the energies that can call specific things for specific reasons. For example if you want to see faeries you could make a cone shape and place a symbol of a fae with welcome, on the bottom of the cone (just sit the cone on top of the symbol). This sends out these types of energies through the air and the fae pick up on it and vibrate to or be drawn to where they are welcome.

Same thing for increasing health or money or such things, it all resonates with positive vibrational frequencies and bring those things to us if it is in our best and highest interest. I have seen orgone energy cones (generators) used in hospitals with a symbol of good health use underneath the cone and people have gotten well in record time. It also doesn’t matter if you believe in it or not, it is like gravity it just seems to work period. I have even given these away at Yule to friends for special reasons, one was for spiritual awakening work, one was for health another was for busting the negative energy coming from a cell tower. They all said they felt better once they used them

How to Make Orgonite

More Questions

Dee asks hope you don't mind. I have a couple more question. (You can edit these into your blog post if you like.)
~1. Do you use a mold release for your molds? Or does the resin just naturally not adhere to paper, metal or plastic?

Yes you will need a lubricant for release. Just about anything can be used for a mold from a funnel to party hats (seam taped) to those cheap drinking glasses (martini) But you will need to lubricate it so it doesn’t stick. Pour at least 12 –14 oz of resin mix to make your cones. To much hardener will make the Orgonite over heat and t may crack, don’t worry it doesn’t effect he energies so its no problem. If it takes more then an hour or two to harden you didn’t add enough hardener to your nix, just let it sit , it may take 24 hours but it will harden and it will work. Be sure to wear Gloves to protect your hands

~2. What is the symbol of health and well being? I like to use runes The one I use is Uraz    heres a great website that lists the runes and their meanings http://www.sunnyway.com/runes/pronunciation.html#uruzp

 Try this vid off YouTube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccS70UQE0fE

"Hello Michael." I say.

"Hello Cub, you look like you’re hurting tonight."

I smile and reach out my hand, "A bit but if you help me up I can make it."

His hand reaches out and I am actually lifted from the chair. The pain is flowing away and I am feeling renewed, wish this lasted all the time.

"Where are we going tonight," I ask.

"To the portal rooms" he replies and drapes his wings about me. Within seconds we are drifting, flying through the many astral planes and I see many many people I recognize. I do not know "know" them but we have passed each other many times on the way to our destinations and I wave. They wave back and some even say hi as we pass by, its funny how quickly one can get used to things, I remember when this kinda scared me, now its old hat.

We enter the portal room and Michael makes sure I am comfortable. He brings me my purple robe, it is warm and comfy. He helps me put it on and I am immediately aware of the healing energy it pours over and through me, any residual pain is gone and I can sit comfortably.

Yet something is sticking me in the pocket, I put my hand in and laugh as I pull out the offending object. It is may hair brush and I grin at Michael, he smiles back and says, "I know how you are." I brush my hair and put the brush away, then I roll up to the table in my chair. I see "my space" has already been set up as there is a tablet to write on and pens.

"Guess I will be taking notes?" I say as I pick up the pen. "Only if you want to," he replies.

The door slides open and in walks two other angels with trays of goodies to eat and drink. I say hi and they smile at me and set out the goodies on the table. Then in walks Gabriel and flings himself into a chair.

He leans forward and runs his hands through his auburn hair with golden highlights. He is still as tall, almost 7 ½ feet, as before with intense emerald eyes. His wings are folded back but you cant mistake their ever changing colors of golden, to pale yellow, to green to light blue and a twinkle of purple, they rotate in color at the very tips as the rest stay an even snowy white. He looks tired and his swimmers body looks like it could use a rest.

"Gosh I am tired been working all morning, sure could use something to drink" he says and reaches for a soda.

The door opens again and in walk another angel, there is a pinkish light about it, not overpowering just soft and gentle. He too has auburn hair, it is cut shorter. Not buzz cut, just shorter on the sides and longer on top. He is beautiful, there is no other word for it. I am enchanted.

His eyes are steel grey and his skin tone is light, kinda yellowish. There is a small scar on the left cheek. His wings are held flat back not folded out, they have green stripes on the edges and soft pink tops closest to the shoulders. He pops Gabriel on the arm, "Hey lazy how’s it going?"

"Lazy! Cham I’ll have you know I have been double timing all my work for the past 2 months, I just don’t know when its gonna stop. Boy am I bushed"

"Tell me about it, we have been swarmed by those in need too, I guess that’s why were here isn’t it?" He smiles and grabs a chair and they begin to talk at a volume I can’t hear. The doors continue to open and a lot of beings in robes come in and line the walls.

I ask Michael what's going on who are all these people. He explains. "Well the bushed guy you know is Gabriel. His job of protecting and sending healing energies for mothers and children as well as delivering messages from the Creator has kept him and his Angels really busy these last months. So many to people in need to keep track of.

The other one with the pink glow is Chamuel and he is the Angel of pure love, he keeps you from the depths of depression and sorrow. He’s been busy as well. Those beings there are angels who are under his direction and they help to guard the portals of the sky, keeping out the unwanted energies of darkness. They are here to take notes for the other 25,000 who work under Chamuel. That leads to why we are here."

Michael doesn’t grab anything to eat so I know this is serious and not like the fun Michael I know. He steps to the front of the room and a light lights him up. "OK lets settle down and get started. Everyone knows who everyone is pretty much, except maybe Joy. Everyone this is Joy she is here to hear what's going on."

I shyly say Hi and I notice that Chamuel has an amazing loving smile, Gabriel waves, "Yes I met her at solstice, Hi Joy."

Michael clears his throat. "OK we are here to talk about the emotional situation of the humans. We said things would get bad and many are feeling it now, depression oppression and just a general feeling of it never getting better. Hopelessness is around every corner. "

A map appears on a screen from nowhere and I see the world enveloped in a web of black gooy string. Its seems alive and is weaving together, trying to swallow up the entire world.

"We have uncovered the plan of the darkness in its attempt to refocus the Children of Light from their tasks to be beacons of light for those in need. It seems all around the world the darkness has spread its hopelessness and feelings of dehumanization. We have had more Light Workers thinking of suicide then normal and it has kept us all busy. Gabriel has been particularly busy trying to deliver messages of hope but being turned back in many cases by darkness that has made inroads to our Light workers. There is opposition in many corners of the lives of our workers till a point they just feel like giving up and walking away, hiding till it leaves.

But that’s the point IT ISNT GOING TO JUST LEAVE.

Cham has been working to relieve the world of this onslaught of depression and its all been making some what of a difference but we have to give our light workers MORE to fight back with.

So we have composed a short affirmation/song that can be recited again and again

Gabriel empowered it so it will work, just say it again and again when you get to that point of wanting to run. It will fill our Light Workers and break this blackened hold the darkness is trying to place on our world."

Then I saw the gooy strings breaking over England area. It seemed to just snap and be gone. I ask Michael what was happening there and he told me the contact for them had started their affirmations already and this was the result, the stings breaking and dissolving away. I watched it spread like wildfire and knew we could touch the world and make the changes we needed if we just fought back like this.

Chamuel spoke, "Michael don’t forget I have my Angels of Destruction ready to fight as well. You let us know when and we will pounce on this latest attack with out hesitation. We must release the world and restore the Children of Lights confidence and faith that all will be well."

Michael replied, "That’s the next step Cham as soon as the Children help release the blackness we will step in to do battle. Then Gabriel and his Angels will rush in with the healing energies and deliver the messages the Creators have been trying to get the Children to hear. Now it may take some time because the Children must help make everything ready but we will do it."

With that the screen closed and disappeared but not before I saw places glowing in illuminated light once more.

"So I guess that’s it everyone, that’s the plan. Now I know we can do this together and that’s why the meeting was made together. You get your sections ready and we will form a united front, within the Light we are unbeatable!" said Michael and everyone clapped and hooted.

The meeting kinda broke up then as hands reached for goodies on the table and everyone was talking to everyone. Michael sat beside me.

"I hate speaking like that always makes me uncomfortable, much better with a sword." He grabbed for a burger.

"Michael I have been really down and depressed as of late, out of sorts and thinking of killing myself but to down to even care to try. I hope this works, many are feeling like this as well."

"We know Cub and we have been working over time to help but we can’t do a lot when people are not open to our help. They are once more so down they are forgetting who their true nature is and that is a Child of the Light, they just need to claim it once more and things will lift.

We cant stop the antics of the darkness, the things they have been set loose on the world to do but we can stop how much it affects those Children dedicated to the Positive Lighted Path. They are sending those to oppress you physically, spiritually and financially, they want to confuse your faith and take your light away. DO NOT let them.

Remember who you are and why you are there, do not run away and hide even if you would like to, now is the time to fight! To get in their face, to keep trying, every inch helps and every little bit of Light adds to the overall sum. Keep doing all you can and call to us when you have need, don’t say oh they don’t hear me or don’t care. WE DO! We are there and we are doing all we can BUT you must help to. You MUST fight too don’t expect us to carry the whole load you have to fight back and spread as much light as you can even when things feel at their lowest keep fighting we are there beside you. Does that make any sense at all to you?"

"Yes," I reply "That makes a whole lotta sense. I will remember Michael and I will share the Affirmation with as many as I can to help empower us when we have need. Let’s see I wrote it down here:

"Great then we have done our work here today, now let’s enjoy everyone’s company for awhile and I will take you back later. Next thing I knew an angel handed me a plate of food and a guitar appeared from no where. Raphael (where he came from I don’t know) was singing and so was Chamuel. There was lots of playing and talking and I even won a round of rummy.

When the Angels began to thin out Michael came to me and took my hand, we have to go Cub but I wanted you to meet Chamuel up close.

He lead me to Chamuel's side and Raphaels. "He and Raphael will be doing all they can to help with the depression and thoughts of suicide. They will try and lift everyone up and heal what has been wounded, it won’t be easy or simple but they have consented to do all they can."

I thanked Chamuel and Raphael and told them how much we appreciated their intercession for us and their energy work. They smiled and nodded and said we were welcome. They were fighters for the Children of the Light and would do all they could, all we would allow them to do in our lives.

"That’s the key I said, isn’t it. You can only do what we allow you to."

"Yes" said Michael "That’s the key to it all, you must allow us to work with and for you, as I said together we are unbeatable and the darkness must run."

Within seconds I found myself in my chair once more, Michael tucking me in and me tired and sleepy.

" I know you haven’t been physically well Cub so write this when you feel up to it, in the mean time we will make ready and tell others to make ready to." A quick kiss on the forehead and this journey was done.

Moving on with life

Well life has its ups and down and mine has been down lately but it is time to take ahold and refocus my friend Dark Scriptor http://dark_scriptor.bravejournal.com/ was right I believe the latest attack has been the darkness trying to refocus my attention. I have been feeling very useless and that is on me and no one else. I have allowed others passing comments and feelings to injure me and I will not do so any more.

Nope its back to working for the light and if something stings me I will need to look at it closer and ask myself why. Then I will change the energy level and bring it to a higher frequency so it fit with the light better and not allow it to drag me down to the darkness.

I have been accused of this being a one sided place, well I am afraid its true. I cant deny it, it is my thoughts and feelings and that is pretty much one sided. I am not here to act as a journalist and give a fair and impartial view I am here to speak my truth the way I see and feel it. This is my safe place where I can say what I wish (that’s why I paid for another year.) Sometimes it may sound unfair and I agree it maybe but that’s my feelings at the time. My feelings are not written in stone and once I get them out and see them I may very well change them when I se how unfair they are or I may just feel better "speaking" them. Please do not take them personally, they are thoughts that flow through my mind and I can not really apologize for my thoughts. Just each of you know if I am angry at you I will let you know I will e-mail you to work it out. If however I am hurt I will work it out here before I leap off and make yet another fool of myself. This is not to cause drama as some may say it is just the only way that works for me in my thinking healing process, I have always been one to write it down and once out I can easily move on with no hard feelings.

So anyway I will be moving on and doing what I can to help the light, I may stumble in your eyes and falter. I may not be the perfect listener to my spirit guides or the ALBs I am human and believe me I make so major mistakes daily. Yet where ever I am, whatever event I am in, no matter in whose eyes I may be doing it wrong or not perfect I am exactly where I need to be. In all my imperfection’s I am perfectly me and I am trying to strive to be a better person even if I keep coming up short. Just because I happen to speak with Angels doesn’t mean I don’t make mistakes or am better than anyone else on their spiritual journey, it just means I get messages to share and can mess up even more (which I often do) then others lol.

What means a lot to me in my blog family is how kind so many of you have been to me. How you have lifted me up and cared for me in my darkest of hours and how your passing words are often perfect for me at the moment you share them and you don’t even know. In my life (without going into depth) I have seldom, almost never had people stand up for me or care enough to lift me up, so such actions mean the world to me. So to the many who over my blogging years have been there I send you the most loving and grateful hugs you could ever have as well as a warm heartfelt thank you.

Blessings all and I will be here yet another year

LWM

I am in a chat and feel as if my skills are being devalued. The pattern of speech is familiar and the words used ring a bell I wonder if it is the one who hates me. I am upset and confused. I am silent.

They ask: are you OK, tell us we will support you we are your friends

I believe them, this is a safe place to speak after all my beliefs were just torn apart by another here so you can say what you feel right.

I say I think that person was I name them

No it was not someone replies

OK I say, but down deep I wonder

An ease dropper bursts in "It was not me how dare you say these things when I am not here."

OK I was wrong

Why say them when I was not here

No one asked me before I answer

You have wronged me and blah blah blah

I apologize (This is not a safe place to speak your truth I soon learn)

Still he rants and on and on

9 times I say I am sorry

3 times I ask what I can do to make it right

His tirade goes on and on,

Once I ask are you even reading what I am writing

on and on it goes.

I shout I WAS WRONG

Still he goes on and on (Gezz all I said was I thought it was him speaking)

On he goes assaulting me

Again I try to apologize still he ignores it

Run the voices say run and hide, let this darkness win this night, I am crying (conflict always makes me cry) I am bending over backwards. What have I done so bad but speak what I thought and then only when asked. What happened to this being a good place to discuss things?

I am shaking, still he goes on. I am afraid but I am not sure of what. His darkness weaves a cloak about me and I am suffocating in its nasty words and innuendoes. He is screaming something about how come he is the bad guy defending himself. I wonder why he is the bad guy as well…..

There is no defense here. I have admitted that I may have made a bad assumption, I was wrong and I am sorry yet it is not enough

I ask what would be enough.

He says he doesn’t know I feel broken and embarrassed I feel alone and useless, I am humiliated and degraded and for what I say. For voicing when asked what I was thinking

A light hand touches me and the flutter of wings about me. I remember I do not have to justify anything. I have done my part and this continued assault is just the darkness trying to beat me down and make me stop. I am renewed by the energy about me

ENOUGH! I Shout! I have had enough I tell him, I have done all I can if he accepts or denies it it is up to him. I am done with this and nothing will ever satisfy him I am done with this all.

He still doesn’t stop but I do not return an answer, he doesn’t know what to do and leaves. I am relieved and apologize to those who had to suffer this confrontation as well.

He rushes back in with something Blah blah blah about not exchanging e mails about him either. I have assured him earlier I would never mention him again (by name) and so I say nothing. Yet I wonder how he will censor my e-mails… this seems ridiculous to me.

In fact growing in self confidence as the Angels stand beside me. I am sure this whole thing was BS and an attempt to make me run (see he hated me from another infraction he sees I did months ago) Nope I will not run, this made me stronger.

But what it also did was teach me that no one will stand for you but you. I will not speak my truths there it is NOT SAFE Such an outrage on my board of a person who was asked what they thought would have been a time out (a short ban) it did not happen I was forced to fight and I did not want to, I wasn’t up to it yet "it is good they are talking" was said. IT WAS NOT GOOD it was painful and hurtful and I had no way out but to leave. I could not leave for it would have been rude so I was forced to face this onslaught of darkness, I will not be so stupid again I have learned.

I do not know if I will ever return to that place. I do not know if I will ever speak there again. I will let the Angels lead me what I do know is that a large wall has been built between me and everyone there at the time I am not sure at this point if I will ever tear it down, it is not a safe place to share and I will remember that for all eternity.

LWM

The Universe is at work again and once more I am in awe. For those who have been following me you know of our plight of losing the house we lived in and being evicted, homeless and now fighting to find our way back on our feet. We were upset we had lost the house as you can imagine and just couldn’t understand the universe. Still the land is owned by a corporation we head so we went out to check the land which is still the corporations property. Now if you also remember 3 or 4 weeks ago Fargo was flooded and fighting to keep the city from going under. This piece of land is in a small town close to Fargo and on a nice day we decided to take a look at any damage.

On our way out we spoke of the pain we went through and not understanding why the universe had thought it best for us to lose our home, as we got closer we noticed lots of damage to the fields and the road, yet we continued. Closer we traveled to our home and saw fields that it would be impossible to plant anything in for awhile as the water and mud was to soggy. We noticed 4 feet of water sill standing in the ditch on one side of the road and still we traveled on. Next we crossed over a bridge that covers a river, the river was still way out of its banks and almost over the road, with maybe a foot or foot and a half to go. A housing complex next to it was still lapping at the peoples doors and had about 6 feet to go to be on the porches. Sandbags still in place to keep the water away.

Finally we turned down our road to our lost home, a few feet into it stood a sign on an over pass that read Road closed ahead. Wanting to see what was happening we drove to the top of the over pass and were not in the least ready for what we saw. 3 weeks after this flood we saw what I would call beach front property in the fields that surrounded the homes where we lived. The road had washed out and the fields were not just flooded but covered with water, you couldn’t see the fields at all. It looked like a giant lake. A house (not ours but close to ours) was sitting in the middle of pond of water and there was no doubt that water had filled this home just a few weeks ago if not still now. NO ONE could get into their homes here, unless it was by boat.

We stood there just caught in the sight, looking trying to wrap our minds around what we saw and the destruction of it all. We were overwhelmed and shocked to the core, we turned the car around and began the drive back.

On the ride home we talked about how lucky we were to have been gone when we were or we would have lost all our belongings in the flood. Every thing we owned would right now be sitting in a water as the water poured through the cracks, windows and doors of the house. How wise the universe had been to move us when it did because the place we ended up at couldn’t have taken us in during the flood because someone else had been staying there. That it would have been near impossible to get me in my wheel chair out of there in a boat as well as all of the dogs. The cars would have been lost and many many other things as well. As bad as the eviction had been we had managed to survive it and keep most of our possessions. The universe was wise even when we whined and cried, what was going on was in our highest and best interest even when we didn’t understand it all. We were being Blessed at the time and couldn’t recognize it until the event had happened. We Thanked the Goddess and God at that moment for taking care of us, even when we were like whining children wanting our way, lesson learned!

As we drove I kept hearing the fae talking about the house, they were saying the basement was full of water, not hard to believe and since the electricity was off the sump pumps hadn’t turned on. Ohhhh what a mess that was. They giggled and said "Hadn’t you always wanted an in ground pool Lady Wolfen?" I smiled and said "Yes, but not like this". Lady Wyntier Song made the comment that all the mice in the fields were seeking higher ground and the Fae agreed all the critters and bugs had looked for a place to be safe, plenty had found it in our old home, deserted and dark. We both shivered at this thought and at the thought of the mice and such coming in, in droves to escape the rising waters. Now I am not afraid of mice but I would rather they not run through my home and crawl on my stuff. No they need to stay outside where they live, so the thought of them on my items was very disagreeable to me. No doubt we must thank the universe and learn to trust.

Once back in town I decided I was hungry and could use a sandwich as my sugar was dropping and I could feel it. We stopped at McDonalds and got a burger and Lady Wyntier Song got her favorite apple turnovers (She always gets 2 one for now and one for later). Munching on my burger and talking of our discovery we passed a very busy corner where traffic flows at a pretty even and fast pace. There stood a woman in her early 30s with a sign and a back pack. Now its bad enough on my heart strings when it says homeless, because in my opinion NO ONE in the USA should ever be homeless, hungry, or without proper clothes (I.E. Coast for winter or shoes or so on) or need medical attention but there she stood. This time the sign said Homeless-Broke anything will help! Now remembering our affliction I quickly made the corner burger still in hand , if I had money to buy a burger I had a few dollars for her. Lady Wyntiers Song was already reaching for the wallets…"Give me a ten" I said and she poped one into my hand as she took my burger. "Here," She said "she might be hungry" and placed the second apple pie in my hand. What a gesture, it brought tears to my eyes for her to give up her food for another, I have such a giving friend and I am lucky.

We were closer to the homeless lady now, I rolled down the window but the traffic was going to fast I couldn’t pass it off this fast. What to do I thought, ah the hell with it they all can wait! I stopped the car not for an extended time but long enough to give her the money and then the pie. "Here Honey its warm, you might be hungry." She took it with a beaten down smile, "Thank you God Bless" "Been where you are, bless you" and with that we drove away.

I watched her put the food in her back pack and the money in her pocket and pick up her sign once more. I remembered when 5 was good but 10 dollars felt like you were king. I remembered the kindness of so many when Lady Wyntiers Song and I had become homeless and how money was given without a word. I wished such loving hearts for her and in silence I started to cry. I noticed Lady Wyntier Songs eyes had tears as well. "Well let me turn on the AC so we can at least say the tears are from that" we both laughed and wiped our eyes with tissues. "Could have been us" I said. "Yes it could have" she replied. We passed the place where we stayed and both said "Blessings to him."

Then we moved on to everyday things like how much we needed to gather together to move to a cheaper apartment which we have been wanting to do. As well as our dreams and so on but there in the back of my mind is still how awesome the universe is and how amazing its timing even when we don’t know, even when we fight it and whine like children to get what we think we want. As long as we stay in the light and try to do what is in our highest and best interest it leads us, sometimes kicking and screaming to what we need most. We don’t see the bigger picture the Angels (ALBs) have explained that to me, we don’t know all the players we just se out small part of it. It is because of this we must have sublime submission and faith and trust. Today taught me a lot on this subject, each day I learn more some days more then others this day I think I finally got it. The lesson that I was to learn finally made it through this thick skull, so now as for the new apartment we were so hard trying to find I will just sit back and allow the universe to work as it should. Heck what it will give me will be better then anything I could have figured out anyway and it will work wonderfully. So if we are meant to get this one or the next one I will be patient and I will wait. For it is the Lady and Lord I serve and I may as well let then use me as they will and give me what they wish me to have and They only wish me to have good things, now I ask ya how do you beat that!

LWM