Welcome to this place inside my head.
I AM BLESSED
See post March 18th 2008 for details on why this is here
http://silverhoofs.bravejournal.com/entry/31995
Standing on a moonlit path, a wolf howls and I shudder
Where walks the fear of humanity is all my minds does utter
I reach for magick all about, for wisdom born of aches
And I know that one day I will reach the promised Crystal Lakes
The magick swells within my soul, and I am frightened too
For I am only now learning what this mind can really do
So walk this twisted path with me where feelings run so free
As I discover the powers behind the hidden Mysteries .
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Well I still haven’t got the clarity I wanted on the last message but time seems to be of the essence so I will give you the feelings and impressions I have gotten. When I was with Michael we were looking into a portal with swirling whirlpool of color and pictures.
Michael took my arm and pointed and the blending colors and whirlpool began to clear. I saw a calendar with the months flipping away. Aug showed a dark red circle on Aug 2nd. Then the calendar highlighted the 18th through 30th. Next the calendar flipped to Sept and it was all red starting in light hues of red and becoming darker until you couldn’t even see the number under the red anymore.
Next pictures came, wars and bombs, riots, people running and fighting and grocery stores without much food. Cars pulled over in long lines and what looked like checkpoints. Then there were what seemed like cops in black uniforms and on and on it went in that vein
Cities appeared and flames of purple light exploded from pinpoints and above homes with in cities. The exploding lights then turned a bright Golden White and rained down upon the cities in need. As it touched people in the cities you could see the heart chakra's as well as other energy centers seemed to power up and glow. These people touched by the light reacted in a loving compassionate way. While there was little food to go round I saw people sharing what little they had. I saw entire homeless families in shelters huddled together but still sharing with others. As hard as it was there were times there was singing and laughing and lots of caring touches. The light continued over and over, purple flames exploring to Golden White in the air and back down on the cities. As much greed, corruption and pain there was all over the light in people souls and heart pushed it back. It was hard and even those who were light filled had hard times, times of despair (which looked a dark gray over them) yet the light continued to grow and push back the despair. The entire universe hummed and the energy frequency seemed to rise and fall, pulsing and throbbing as planets began to move and blink in and out.
The whirlpool of colors began again. Then upon a quick clearing the universe seemed to not be the same as it was before. Some planets had moved others were missing and Light filled the dark void of space. The beauty was indescribable and I looked into Michael’s eye all I could understand was one clear sentence. "Ascension in progress"
So that’s it, that’s as best I can understand it. I will keep trying; my energies are coming more into focus after everything that’s been going on. I hope to get clearer message once more soon. However in the meantime beware of the next 2 months it seems to be a very important time in the battle of light and dark. In the experience above I also got the expressed feeling that the Angels and those others working with and above them are very pleased with our progress and how hard and seriously we have been working to help in victory against the darkness. We are further ahead then they expected and this will be a great help, so keep up with what you’re doing. Be kind, share and above all
SHINE!Blessings,
LWM
Well I still haven’t got the clarity I wanted on the last message but time seems to be of the essence so I will give you the feelings and impressions I have gotten. When I was with Michael we were looking into a portal with swirling whirlpool of color and pictures.
Michael took my arm and pointed and the blending colors and whirlpool began to clear. I saw a calendar with the months flipping away. Aug showed a dark red circle on Aug 2nd. Then the calendar highlighted the 18th through 30th. Next the calendar flipped to Sept and it was all red starting in light hues of red and becoming darker until you couldn’t even see the number under the red anymore.
Next pictures came, wars and bombs, riots, people running and fighting and grocery stores without much food. Cars pulled over in long lines and what looked like checkpoints. Then there were what seemed like cops in black uniforms and on and on it went in that vein
Cities appeared and flames of purple light exploded from pinpoints and above homes with in cities. The exploding lights then turned a bright Golden White and rained down upon the cities in need. As it touched people in the cities you could see the heart chakra's as well as other energy centers seemed to power up and glow. These people touched by the light reacted in a loving compassionate way. While there was little food to go round I saw people sharing what little they had. I saw entire homeless families in shelters huddled together but still sharing with others. As hard as it was there were times there was singing and laughing and lots of caring touches. The light continued over and over, purple flames exploring to Golden White in the air and back down on the cities. As much greed, corruption and pain there was all over the light in people souls and heart pushed it back. It was hard and even those who were light filled had hard times, times of despair (which looked a dark gray over them) yet the light continued to grow and push back the despair. The entire universe hummed and the energy frequency seemed to rise and fall, pulsing and throbbing as planets began to move and blink in and out.
The whirlpool of colors began again. Then upon a quick clearing the universe seemed to not be the same as it was before. Some planets had moved others were missing and Light filled the dark void of space. The beauty was indescribable and I looked into Michael’s eye all I could understand was one clear sentence. "Ascension in progress"
So that’s it, that’s as best I can understand it. I will keep trying; my energies are coming more into focus after everything that’s been going on. I hope to get clearer message once more soon. However in the meantime beware of the next 2 months it seems to be a very important time in the battle of light and dark. In the experience above I also got the expressed feeling that the Angels and those others working with and above them are very pleased with our progress and how hard and seriously we have been working to help in victory against the darkness. We are further ahead then they expected and this will be a great help, so keep up with what you’re doing. Be kind, share and above all
SHINE!Blessings,
LWM
If you agree or not this will make you think! People there are dark dark things ahead in Aug or beginning Sept that will change so very much. PLEASE LISTEN and I hope you are ready!
NOW IS THE TIME! WAKE UP!!!!! 
Love and Blessings,
LWM (somedays an
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Greetings friends,
Life here is beginning to move along with some normality to it again. I have gotten some backlash from my post where I wished 10 fold for justice on LWS family who left us hanging. Boy they felt they really told me off.
In any case I tried to explain my position on it saying that it was so that they may learn compassion and so on but they just didn’t get it. They felt I was in the wrong and evil for saying such a thing. I don’t know maybe I am, I am human and I make mistakes... I did wait my 24 hours before doing anything. I didnt do a spell that would cause undue harm. I just invoked the law of 3 (to the 10th) that what ever they gave out, they would get back. In this case the hurt, humiliation and so on, would revisit them 10 fold, so maybe next time if they were on this side of the table they would know how it feels. Alas the main answer was when i said something along the lines of, just a phone call would have been nice (and to be fair they did say they did call but couldn’t leave a message I don’t know why they couldn’t but that’s what they said) anyway I was told very coldly that LWS knows that her brother is not a bank or a therapist. So I guess love for family is considered therapy, caring= therapy, showing of respect for anothers trials= therapy. Gosh i just have so very much to learn about family.
Being an only child I sincerely do not know how this sibling thing works, but so far I am far from impressed as it seems rooted in hurting, one side against the other and even fighting over items of parents who have died, games of one upsmanship and so on. I always thought it was about love and doing for each other because they were blood and were family. That if no one or nothing could be depended on your family was there, that they would love you because they were a part of you and they would help you because they loved you. Like I said I just don’t get it, so maybe they are right and maybe i am wrong and making wrong assumptions and mistakes.
Oh well I guess its not the end of the world if someone is unhappy with what I say or do, not the first time in my life and as psychic as I am it know it will not be the last. As long as I follow what seems right to me and since I pay for this blog I feel I have the right to say what i want (within reason) and since I have not used any names or pointed anyone to a specific website belonging to anyone in question (which in my opinion be wrong and childish) then i am OK with it. It was not my intent to harm but more to vent, to try and understand how someone would be so cold and such...
Yet again, I am human and not perfect by any stretch of the word. Perhaps it was my human side arising that offend them. Why cant someone who is still spiritual and speaks with Angel Like Beings not be able to become angry when they see something that seems so painful and uncaring. Why does someone who is spiritual have to be all Love and Light all the time, there is such a thing as righteous indignation....
Aw well i guess I will just let it be, I will probably raise their ire once more over this post as well. Hey I got an idea if this angers anyone, how about just NOT coming here and reading it anymore! Hows that work? I have taken them off my mailing list at their request so they really shouldn’t have any reason to come here and read anything any more. If they do then its their own fault and they are looking for something to be upset about, but then that’s just my own humble opinion. What do you all think?
Mentally i am growing stronger, thank you all so much for your continuing support and your out pouring of caring in so many way. The quick tags, the e-mails, the gifts, and just the general loving energies sent really really have lifted LWS and Myself over this rough spot and has taught me so very much, Blessing to each and every one of you 1000000 times over.
On another topic all together I saw this on the Internet and it made me smile, to bad it is so true, I think you may enjoy it as well
or Working to figure that out
The darkness pushed me to the edge last night and I didn't have enough energy or will to fight back. I am so alone in this world and I live in such pain. Physical I hurt all the time, I am no longer "does it hurt today?" but now I am at "how much does it hurt today?" I have fallen twice in the last couple of days as my legs just wont hold me up and won't do as I ask them to. My diabetes is way over the top. I had an anxiety attack last night, I prayed it was a heart attack and I would go quickly. I have lost every single thing I have worked for in my life, I have been homeless and maybe so again. I am a loser to the nth degree.
Emotionally I am beaten slashed and shattered. I am alone with no blood family at my side. The one last shot I thought I had at having a family I seem to have somehow screwed up but I am not sure what I did. Just didn't fit I guess and these are such nice people that only the truly unspeakable would not fit there (I did not.) The nightmares of the sheriff breaking into my house seem to flood somehow twisting with the rape I suffered through in the Air Force. I thought i was long over that and left that far behind, yet i am reliving it every night since the sheriff banging down my door. At first it was just in dreams, now it happens when I am awake. I sit and listen constantly waiting for the next shoe to drop praying that those footsteps I hear do not stop at my door. I physically shake and my mind wont clear. I cry so much my eyes have painful sores on each corner from the salt. I miss my dogs they were all I had that loved me. I tried to think of 6 people who would miss me but I found that in truth I would be just a passing comment in a conversation as they moved on to talk about what they saw on TV last night. I have no fight left in me and the hurtful things that are being said by the darkness just keeps pushing me to end it all.
Spiritually I am not as strong as I should be; I am worn out and worn down. I am not sure I want to keep on fighting. I am not sure it is worth it to care anymore.
That is where I am in life. Please do not think I am trying to gain your sympathy I am only writing what is in my heart. I did not ask you here so please don't think I am fishing for anything. Also please do not call the police, it would just make things worse and I do not feel like hurting myself right now. Like I said I am just trying to figure it all out here
Last night the darkness was so bad I gave up and I tried again...yet I am alive again this morning. Then I find out a friend I cared for, a good man who deserved so much more and had so much more then I have to give the world died on Monday. Why I think? Why would he die when he was so useful and had people to love him. And me, who has nothing, who wants to die, who serves no purpose in life and now cant even maintain simple friendships with people who are so very kind and giving, why would someone like me keep making it? I would gladly give up my life to have this man return to his life, his love, his family. He has so much to share, he helped so many and he was so kind. What good am I this crippled shell of a person? Crippled not just in body but in mind and soul as well. What good am I?
Yet I am here and I try to face a new day, I walk forward with each faulty step and I reach as best I can with my tired worn and broken body, mind and soul for the Light. Still it seems so far away and I am so tired.
Angels if you are there HELP ME, Lady and Lord if you are there HELP ME. Heal me, I do not wish to live in this torment and pain anymore I beg all of you (angels and God and Goddess) HELP ME, Heal Me, give me some worth again, set me up and return to me the security I have lost. I implore you to do it soon, I am trying to hang on but my grip is slipping……..
To those who have asked about the ALBs and what I have heard I have to say in this mess of a life of mine I have been blocked from talking with them on the conscious level (physical). However I do have subconscious (dreamtime) I have spent with them that I can share.
Now if you don’t want to hear what is coming and you are happy where you are in life
DON’T READ ON! If you want to know what I was told here it is. I will make no apologies for this and I will not defend it. I have the time or energy to do so. Believe what you will. I am merely a vessel to present itI was with Michael and a group of other Angels in the open room, as they discussed what is to come. They said the next 4 years here on earth will become sheer hell. That it is the time the darkness will ‘sing" and all forms of pain and hurt and depravity will rule. That laws once held dear will be thrown out, that the population of the world will die in a very awful flu like virus and in unknown painful fast moving illness’s. That genocide will continue at an alarming rate about us in many countries and that it will begin in others. That the middle east will draw the final straw and stop pushing each other and finally land a true punch. The world will have little to no food; water will be like gold. Banks will fail and homeless will be everywhere, families and individuals will die from cold exposure, heat exposure. Lack of health care, lack of food and from others just enjoying killing. Containment camps (refugee like camps for homeless) will be opened to place them in, they will lose everything and many will die at the hands of the governments while in these camps. The rich in the USA will be fine and not be touched by most of this, the middle class and poor will be fairly wiped out.
It is expected that by Aug. awful things will happen in America and Bush may declare Marshal Law, they said may because he still could have a conscious and exercise his freewill to not do so. Yet they were pretty much sure that as he has behaved in the past he will continue with his plan.
Light workers will be busy doing all they can to survive and to spread the light, darkness will be upon them with grand oppression every second of the day. To push the darkness away my friends find a heart felt song where there is a lot of emotion and sing it, Sing it outloud and in your head when need be. I like Faith of the Heart, but it can be any song that has great emotional meaning for you. You don’t have to know every word, heck you can make it up to suit the situation, just sing it. The commitment to the light, the faith in it and all the Righteous Good Caring Shining Light will push that darkness back and allow the Goddess and God room to work in your life as you need, to bring you answers or help or knowledge.
That is all my friend for now such relating drains my energy, I can do no more this night. There is more and I will share it when I feel better. I am an edge walker and I am desperately fight the forces that are telling me to just end it all, the forces that tell me no one reads this anyway and it is all just a waste. The voices that say make it easy on yourself and others, end the pain you feel so often now, the night terrors you dream of, the fear of the sheriff and all laws. That you are a loser, a lazy fat pig, that you deserve to die just as your mother told you when you were 5. That nothing you do is or will ever be good enough. Then there is the pain of the loss of my heart in my dogs, and my mental down spiral at that. The voices say end the lies that have been told to you, end this daily pain,
end it all it whisper so softly in my head, and come home and rest. I fight this every second of every day and to day I do not feel much of a fight left in me, yet I know it is not what I should do. So I select to fight on bleeding, physical pain still off the charts, exhaustion, and so much more. I carry on for I am a good solider of the Light and i will not give the darkness a victory so long as there is a single breath left in me.LWM
Life is AwesomeGreetings everyone,
If you have been following my blog you know of our recent plight yet on the up side it has been a very spiritual cleansing time. I learned to let go of a lot and practice the unwavering faith I preach about. Practice what you preach is a harder road then I thought but we did it and are stronger in faith for it.
I also saw the many lightworkers of the Lady and Lord in action out there as people who we did not know would come to our aid stepped out of the wood work and not just held our hands and dried our tears but actually lifted us up on their shoulder and walked us though the fire. Amazing my friends, simply amazing. I wish each of you could experience such Love and such caring, it in itself is overwhelming and breathtaking.
Yes just when we felt the lowest we ever had, as I have no blood family I could ask for help. LWS has brothers who turned out to be not caring of our plight and WOULD NOT help us.(notice I said would not, not could not. Even when we crawled in tears and begged them for help which we would have paid back. The other one didnt even care enough to call her back.) I pray the universe send to them 10 fold the pain, humiliation, fear, aloneness, helplessness, the night in the car and the loss of what we loved most (our precious babies) all that we went through. 
Let them feel the inhumaness they so uncaring left us to feel. Only thing is if they called us we would find some way to help them for I am that soft hearted. 
LWS on the other hand has pretty much walked away from them and will not look back (hurt like this is deep and perhaps she will heal but I doubt it since they haven’t even called to see how she is.) 
But enough of that I am sure you are bored with it by now.
I am trying to get back into the swing of things and still working on projects. One of the main projects I am working on is putting the 101 class into book form. You buy the book for a set price, if you wish to use it for recognition in to the Wolfen Wicca ® tradition there are tests you must take and a fee. Also there are kits that can be purchased (which will be on the website) for the practical items. So one can just buy the book and read it but to be a recognized member of the Wolfen Wicca ® tradition there are a few other steps one needs to go through before this is complete with a few reasonable fees as well. I think this will get the information out there much better and I can even get it into main stream stores like Barnes and Nobel and such. So wish me luck on that.
I am also trying to keep the Angelic feather project going and I hope to be sending out feathers to a few celebrities I feel need these by the end of this month.
No matter what WE as Lightworkers must continue to spread the Light no matter what is happening to us and what obstacles the darkness has placed in our way to make us unfocused and stray from the path. We must spread the Light to those we can, we must explain consequences for action and personal responsibility for acts (the basics of the 3 fold law) as this is some of the first steps to awakening the Light spirit within. Seeing and understanding how your action interact with all around you and accepting the consequences of those actions good or bad. We must explain free will choice that you can serve choose to serve the darkness or the Light. That the darkness can only promise you and give you those things that would have been given to you in the Light if you would have asked and reached out/prepared for. That the darkness is a liar and will eat your soul, the light will lift you up the spiritual ladder bringing you closer the Lady and Lord and to your higher self. Oh I guess I got on a roll there so I will now change soapboxes completely (hee hee)
OK now if you don’t care about helping the world and being a good steward skip this part. If you care I deeply deeply urge you to go to Care2 and sign this petition.
I signed the petition "Animal Cruelty on Snuffx.com - Offenders need to be Prosecuted to the fullest extent of the Law". This site is horrible and promotes animal torture as well as extreme porn violence I'm asking you to sign this petition to help us reach our goal of 3,000 signatures. I care deeply about this cause, and I hope you will support our efforts.
Please forward to everyone you know!!!!! The petition has hardly any signatures, so maybe it's new. Let's make sure everyone in the civilized world signs it.. Please pass on
Even if you can't bear to watch the video,
CAUTION DON’T READ THIS IF YOU HAVE A SOFT HEART: A
video showing 3 young Asians skinning two cats (one white and one black) while they're alive and taped to a tree. It seems there were 4 people involved because you can see 3 and one is making the video. I couldn’t watch all this video as it made me physically sick and I couldn’t see through the tears. If you want to watch it then do so but if you have a very soft heart like I do just take my word for it this is worse then you could ever imagine and we MUST stop it nowGo here to sign the petition at
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/8/animal-cruelty-on-snuffxcom
OK so that’s it for now, if you have e-mailed me with anything please resend it as it may have gotten lost in the mess. I will be trying to catch up and answer everyone who has e-mailed me and I beg you patience as I am working as best I can and dealing on top of it all with an awful MS flare up
(Not an excuse just an explanation for my delays)
In the meantime please remember we are all spiritual creatures having a physical adventure. If you see someone in need help them. Reach out a hand, dry a tear, if you have a dollar or more you don’t know what a difference this may make in their life at that time. Give my friends for in reality none of this stuff can be taken with you and none of it is as important as the love you create and share and the spiritual lessons you learn and information you glean from life. So love my friends, care my friends and SHINE as the truly wondrous being the Goddess and God created you to be. SHINE!
Still I Am Forever In The Loving Service Of Others,
Lady Wolfen Mists
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My friends if you havent signed the Kucinich petition to Impeach Bush I ask you to think about it. Let your heart guide you and let the many who have been killed in this senseless war hear you step up and say "ENOUGH of this Crap!" Lets take back America and make Her Strong, Loved and Honorable as She was meant to be by the founding Fathers.
Now stop moaning about Bush and all that’s going on and DO SOMETHING about it!
Fighting for the Light & Lady Liberty
Lady Wolfen Mists
Lastest update things are changing for me, better I am not sure but the universe is making great changes in my life. Yet I will tell you more of that later.
Right now I want to remind you how very sacred this day is here in the USA. We take it for grated a day off work, fireworks, parties and laughter but just for a second let us reflect on this day and the many who gave so very much for us to enjoy this day.
Someone asked me who my heroes were, I stand tall and tell you that these are the true heroes in my life. The grand gestures so many make in the public eye are nothing compared to the everyday works of these wonderful people who serve us without fail.
Please just take a second to think on them, if you watch this video be sure to have a tissue ready (if you have a heart at all) and stand proud with a loud THANK YOU on your lips and in your HEARTS
Happy 4th of July All,
LWM
Hello all my dear friends I guess I should give you an update on my life and why I have been out of touch. On wed last we were evicted from my wonderful house. It was totally unexpected and before you say that’s illegal your right, but they still did it and so I was faced with the fact I had to find a place to live. I was homeless.
The sheriff came banging and kicking (yes kicking no exaggeration) on the door. I was sitting in my nightgown in my chair sleeping when all of a sudden the door behind me was literally being pulled off the hinges. I didn’t know who or what was going on. The man was shouting he was the sheriff and I was being evicted. He was rude, threatening and not in the least human or civil, demanding I get up and let him in. I told him I was disabled and couldn’t get up to open the door (in tears, near hysteria and total shock of course) He started kicking the door, and said he was going to kick it down if I didn’t open it. I was begging him not to kick my door in and to give me just an hour to call and find out what was going home. My roommate would be here in a ½ hour to figure this all out.
He still was kicking and yelling and threatening to dump me out on the street and then call social services. I couldn’t move I couldn’t think I couldn’t do anything. My eye started to go blind and my brain problems kicked in, I was shaking and my arm began to hurt, my face going numb, I had no idea what was being said or anything like that. Anyway to make a long nasty unprofessional and painful story short ( I do not want to relive the pain physically, emotionally, or spiritually) I am evicted and no longer live there.
We did find a special angel in the sheriffs dept who helped us and allowed us to get some of our stuff, what a lovely young lady. She enforced the order yet did so with caring compassion and humanity. Not like the cold, nasty, power hungry, dark centered sheriff who seemed to take such pleasure from my pain and confusion. and in his role in punishing me for preconceived wrongs.
So social services got us a motel for a few nights and then this wonderful pagan man I had met not more then 2 weeks before that; as well as his roommates I had known before allowed us to stay at his place. We have been racing around to try and find a place we could afford that allows service animals. Then a place to store the things that wont fit. I had to put down 2 of my big dogs, Lord and Goddess. Lord was 15 or so and long ready to go, just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Goddess was 14 or so and was getting on as well. She wouldn’t have lasted very well without Lord, missing him so much. I couldn’t give her away because she is a bit temperamental and would have bitten a stranger. I spoke with them and they were ready to go to the Summerland together, So as much as it hurt (and believe me it was like my children being taken from me) I did it. I also have to get rid of the 3 puppies. Jack (my special baby) is being taken by my good friend and so I will see him again. Devon is going with another good friend and so I wont totally lose track of him either. Now all I have is baby Minerva, I hope to find her a perfect forever home. She is so tiny it must be just right, no kids because she could be easily hurt and so on. Anyway there has been my life wrapped up in that, worried sick about my loveys.
We did manage to find a place to live, the lady looks so much like my favorite aunt who died I was shocked to see her there as all the color drained from my face, she even acts like her. The lady is so nice and understanding, we will be signing the lease today but the deposit is paid as is the first months rent. Now its just getting movers for the 1st and we are done there.
Just a side note all this was up in the air until June 21st when one phone call after another began to give us good news. Then to top it all off, Lady Wyntiers Song said, "what do the ALBs say?" I answered Michael is here with us, guiding us we must have faith. So LWS says well I wish he would give us a sign and hurry up about it. (We had been to at least 10 places that day we were exhausted and sick) This place we were on the way to we had made an appointment to see 1st thing that day but it was way on the other side of the town so we called and said we werent gonna make the appointment. We looked at the other end of town, closer to LWS work. Nothing, so as an act of desperation we called the number to see if we could still drop by and see it. That’s when LWS said she wished Michael would give us a sign.
Next we met the manger who was the lady who is the spitting image of my aunt. This place was perfect. New, security, huge, elevator wheel chair access garage, heat paid WONDERFUL! What a sign it was from Michael and one we would have gotten right away if we would have seen it right away and not spent time trying to do things our way.
I am on awe of everything going on about this one, The bright Lady is so taking care of us. Friends from so long ago are helping us, people are repaying kindness done for them so many years ago I had long ago forgotten it. The love and compassion from so many brings me to tears on an almost hourly basis, I feel so loved and protected so cared for, I am truly Blessed. Shocked that so many do care about me and are reaching out to help both financially and in heart support. So many saying we will help you in anyway we can……And in this awful dark situation that I feared so much I have found more love and caring then I ever thought existed. I have seen that maybe I have helped a few people and that I do have something to offer people (even with my disability) that they value. The Goddess and God are amazing in the way they teach us lessons.
So as much as the darkness tried to destroy me (forcing upon me my biggest fear homeless in a wheelchair) and as much as it has taken (my home, a few of my dreams and mostly my babies which I love with all my heart and being.) I AM STILL STANDING and I am stronger for this lesson. I see what love can do, not just in my giving it but in allowing myself to receive it (a big step for me). I will NEVER forget how this felt, the fear, the hopelessness, the pain, the shame, the sick without eating, the diabetes sky high, the physical/emotional pain that is off the scales, My left leg is dragging a lot, I stumble and fall often as my legs just wont hold me up. I drop things, I am depressed and cry a lot, the thoughts of suicide are almost all the time now and hard to fight back, I want to really hurt myself. I am fighting a stress migraine off, my back hurts so very much, I cant sleep for the pain when I do there are nightmares, the stress to my brain as I try to make it work and it just wont, the uncertainly of it all. NEVER will I forget this and when I see someone in need as I was, I WILL reach out a hand, not judging. A place to rest and renew, to feel enveloped in love and lend as hand as best I can to help them rebuild their life and remember THEY ARE LOVED !
Thanks for listening to my ramblings and for all that you have sent (or will send). I am still sad, exhausted and feeling like I have taken the beating of a lifetime. But I am also humbled, standing stronger in the light then ever,
Blessings,
LWM
Something I want you all to know in the very depths of your Hearts, etch this on your soul.
YOU ARE LOVED. This wonderful Video says it best, please listen and let it touch all those hurt, wounded, hidden dark places in your being that you have pushed away, locked down, those you have ignored, you have struggled with, All those places that cause such pain in our lives. Listen and above all REMEMBER!!!Now Shine my friends because it is so very true,
YOU ARE LOVEDDo not let the darkness deceive you and pull you down, rise up, reach out as if on wings of Angels. Touch others and allow yourself to be touched. Know how truly special you are, Know that there is no one else who could be doing what you were sent here to do. That the Lady and Lord of Light, in their grand plan, had a reason to sit you here on this world, at this time and that even if you cant remember why, even if life has hurt you again and again, even if your choices have not always been the best. Even if it seems like everything you touch turns to shit and your never gonna get ahead, even if all that and more.
REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED, just as you are. The perfect you as you were meant to be at this time in your spiritual journey and no thing, not one thing could you could ever think, do or say, could ever ever take that love from you. You’re a marvelous amazing powerful creation, NOW SHINE!
Blessings,
LWM
To those of you who may be thinking of getting me a gift (Yule, birthday, Just cause I am so wonderful day) Any one of these will do. Can't say I'm not helpful
A happy and hoping
LWM
I give you this to think on my friends, if you will not listent to the words of the ALBs on what is to come, maybe you will listen to the Hopi Words. If nothing else you must admit life as we know it is changing daily
Blessings and may you hear the words of the wise
LWM
Ok Ok So I am sitting here, shaking and drooling and sweting like mad, I AM AN ADDICT. I have to admit it I need help, your help only you can give me what I need.
See I just started myspace and they got these things where you can own your friends as pets. Just so ya know I;m a good pet owner.
Now since I am new to it I havent alot of friends or alot of earned money to buy my pets. I NEED FRIENDS! I NEED THEM, I DO. 
So I was wondering if any of you would contribute to my needs and let me know if you have a myspace account so I can add you to my friends and make some money 
(heck maybe even buy you, hell I'll buy the world MUHAHAHAH)
Ok Ok a moment of relapse there. I am in control once more...
Ok and they got this thing where you can have a house and ya buy stuff and ya have fights on who has the best and ya get points and you can start a neighborhood. 
I started a neighborhood called Goddess Groves only I'm the only one there...kinda creepy especially at night...
anyway um...so if you want have a house and stuff you can move into my neighborhood and I will get more money to make it better and we will gain power in our neighbor hood and we will rule myspace and as we grow we can take over the WORLD!!
Ok Ok breathe. just breathe...I am back sweet little ol me just waiting for your H...E...L....P!!!!
Oh and if you have an account and dont tell me and I find out..Ohhh boy is there gonna be super pokes galore on you (not a threat a full blown from the bottom of my addicted soul promise)
LWM
http://www.myspace.com/silverhoofs
This is my interaction with the ALbs as I slept last night, it is long and mostly personal. It really isnt telling anything much of the future just time I spent with them and them helping me to understand.
May 28, 2008 © LWM
Last night I had a wonderful time, let me tell you all about it. I went to sleep at the normal time for me around 2:00 am as my legs and back pain had calmed down enough for me to finally sneak in some regular sleep, so exhausted I drifted off. Drifting in the dark velvetness of the black all about me, no longer aware of the pain of my body, I rested.
I became aware of a soft flutter behind me and a familiar scent surrounded me. I noticed a light that shown all about me was a vibrant electric green and seemed too throb and buzz in the dark ebony space where I drifted. I felt someone behind me as I was surrounded by the softest white feathers with lavender tips.
A voice whispered in my ear in a peaceful tone, the base of his words vibrating into my soul, "Relax Joy and let me take your pain. Let me heal you, accept what I give you and fly with me."
I did not turn or look behind me for I knew who was there, it was Raphael and he was there to heal me. I relaxed in his grip as his arms took me closer to his body and I could feel the current of the green light enter my entire essence. I swayed gently to the wondrous pulsing of the light as I could actually hear it breaking up obstacles in my body and flushing them out. This went on for what seemed hours, as I lay blissfully in his arms and he sent such powerful energy through me, in the dark of the vastness of space I was awash in his healing pool of energy.
Then the energy changed as did the color and the vibrant green became a more spring forest green. This energy was bold, saucy and flirtatious. Begging me to stretch, as I hadn't in years from the pain of my muscles. It urged me to reach out on my own and walk, nay run. To leave the safe comfort of Raphael's arms and fly on my own. It did it.
I cautiously lurched forward, waiting for the crippling pain to shoot down my back and my legs to hear my shoulders and spine cry out, STOP! To feel my neck cramp and not allow me to turn. I waited…and waited and still I waited; yet it did not come.
A golden light shown all about me, but then I realized it wasn’t just around me, it was in me. Looking behind me I noticed everywhere I went I left a twinkle of starlight behind me. It made me think of Faery dust and I laughed. Still giggling with wonder at pain relieved after years of it, and I flew forward in this dark womb of new life and I soared on my own!
I did dives and circles and figure 8’s. I somersaulted and cartwheeled and even sat cross-legged in mid air. I swirled this way and that and I felt alive with no pain.
Then beside me I saw the tip of a wing, its unmistakable Lavender glittering in the light that shown from me. A hand reached out for me and said "Come, let me share the wonders of the Universes with you."
So off we went, and soon I found us entering a portal that held the most amazing place. There was a huge bluish planet with soft reddish spots. It had sparking white and blue rings about it, and it hung in the sky. Such a thing a beauty it was and I who almost always have something to say stood agape and in awe.
Below was a mountainous area of tan and black and a sea of glimmering and light emitting green and red sparkles as it sloshed and pushed against the beach and cliffs. There was forest like areas of deep green and I could hear hoots and cackles and screams of creatures talking back and forth.
The planet itself was alive and I could actually hear its heart beat as it throbbed with life and love at the creatures that lived within and with on it. It was an remarkable sight and I looked in awe for hours.
After sometime I noticed that we were sitting on pinkish purple clouds above this world, they reminded me of cotton candy and I told Raphael so. Laughingly he took a piece of the cloud and popped it into his mouth. I did the same, it melted right away, the sweetness was wonderful and indescribable. It was not cotton candy that I was tasting it was something else, something long ago forgotten but still something that brought me comfort and elation.
What was it I asked my mind, what is this long forgotten taste. My brain replied with a memory: I was small about 3 and it was a cold and rainy day, even then my legs hurt but how did I tell someone. I heard my mom call me to the kitchen, she has made me a cup of hot chocolate with whipped cream on top and baked cookies. She helped me to sit in the chair and I was all a giggle at getting to sit with her and have cookies and hot chocolate. I was a "big kid" and I was feeling very loved. She gave me a sugar cookie, still hot from the oven and I dipped it into my "big kid" cup. We both laughed and talked and had fun. That was the memory that was the taste, sugar cookies and love on a cold rainy day. What a gift what a marvelous secret of the Universe I was given, a reminder of good days long past. I took another bite.
Raphael plopped down beside me his normally short brown hair in need of a trim, his tall lean body looking a bit worn. He looked at me with his hazel eyes and I could see he was tired, tiredness not just from helping me but days of weary work.
He said, " This is one of my favorite worlds, the place I come and rest and pull these paradise energies into me. I thought you might like it here as well."
"Oh I do," I said. "Where are we anyway?"
"This is a unspoiled planet out side of your solar system, it is still untouched by any negativity and it is a celestial home to many divisions of the Angels. It is light filled but balanced by the dark and it works in equal balance neither taking too much or giving up to much. Your own planet could be like this once again, when the actual accession begins and each being in your world has to make a choice. To lift up from the darkness to the Light or to keep the world as it is, steeped in unbalanced energy allowing negativity to feed and win. "
"Ahh," I said "and that is what you all have been doing? I haven’t seen Michael in the longest time, I thought he was still dealing with the angel wars and the war against the oncoming darkness. Is that why you look so worn out?"
Raphael laughed a warm loving laugh that made you smile no matter how you were feeling and rocked back and forth. Throwing his arms around me he said, "Do I look that bad Joy? Yes, I guess I am a bit worn and tired, so many in our ranks to help not to mention the many lightworkers on the ground I must protect and keep well. Yes Michael is very busy, he is a great general and works without rest until his work is done. I will tell him you miss him if you like."
"Oh yes please, tell him I miss him and I send him all the positive energy I can, I know he will win, I have unwavering faith in him and all of you. I know the Lady and Lord will scoop us all up out of
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